Buy Me A Star On The Boulevard...

"First born unicorn,
Hard core, soft porn
Dream of Californication..."

44 days.

When I go to LA I want to get my picture with Jodie Foster's star on the Walk of Fame, I saw this cute picture of this guy that Jenn went to school with, and he covered up half of the other persons name, to make his name - Britt... and coincidentally, I was named after Jodie Foster, so I want to cover up Foster, and voila! That's my name! I hope Fortune goes for that... ;-)

Today was awful. Well, just the start of it. I woke up late and I was just going to quickly do my blog and check all my shit and then get ready for work, well I was listening to music and Verizon keeps sending me this "update your internet" thing and I had been putting it off for a long time so I finally did it and it crashed my internet -- like I couldn't start it, couldn't do anything. So then I thought, "well I'll restart..." Nope, that didn't work. "Okay, I'll uninstall it and reinstall it..." First I had to find my cd-rom that came with my Verizon air card... that took me half an hour... so I reinstalled it and it still didn't work. "Ahh, fuck... I have to call Verizon."

I hate calling for tech support. It's lame. But I called and 28 minutes later (exactly) I was back online. That left me only half an hour to check all my shit, so I posted a temp blog and just checked everything real quick.

Verizon isn't on my good list right now. After I was done the guy told me to ignore the updates becuase a lot of people have had that problem lately... I was like, "great, now you told me!"

Also, today Jennifer's phone broke... that's 2 in one week!! She was just texting Leticia and then her messages now just say "thanks"-- I can't describe it, but it ain't working!!

I got through about 1/4 of the lyrics I had to sort yesterday... you can see a video of them at www.youtube.com/jodieplatz -- it's the latest video. Man... so I went through all of the notebooks and tore out all the lyrics and now I'm sorting them into "good" and "bad" piles... "good" means it's going to LA with me and "bad" means it's just not... LOL Jennifer asked me a great question last night and that was, "what makes a lyric good?"

I mean, I was ripping pages left and right and tossing them into piles and I just "knew" if it was good or bad... I mean, I had one lyric that was something to the effect of "the paparazzi wanna take pictures of me/but I don't care if I make on TMZ..." or something retarded like that and I just thought, "did I write that when I was drunk???" You know? And then there was one that was incredible and it was called, "Long Ago".

I've been trying for years to put my experiences about my seperation from my mother into song and even Quan said that I really should because for me personal experiences are the ones that are going to be hits... that's why everyone loves "What's Wrong With You?" so much, because it actually happened, you know? But for me, I am so scared of hurting people's feelings, especially my mothers and I'm not mad at her for what happened, but I keep writing these songs about it. I think "Long Ago" will be the one to make the cut.

So the guy I had a breakfast date with the other day... he asked me for my ring size today... oh gawd. Why do they all go 100 mph??

Tonight I'm sorting more lyrics. I'm in phase 2. I presorted them, now I'm sorting them (good and bad) and then I'm going to organize them (whole complete songs, partial songs and snippet lyrics. Sometimes I just get 2 lines in my head... and then sometimes I'm writing and I can't think of the next line -- that's when I turn to those 2 line lyrics.) After that I'll be in phase (counts) 4 -- writing... I'm going to need 3 seperate notebooks for all of this. Oh lord. I have a long way to go.

My hands are dry -- I need lotion.

It's almost time for Jennifer to get off work, yaaay!

Pic of the Day:



Justin filming The Open Road in Corpus Cristi, TX.

It's inappropriate to say how this picture makes me feel.

xoxox

THE Blog.

"...But I'm same ol' white trash in new shoes..."

Actually, I despise the term "white trash" -- I tend to call people who are white trash what they are -- which are a few people at McDonalds, but if someone calls me white trash it's about the most insultive thing in the world.

So apparently more people read my blog than I had originally planned, which I assume was the plan of this blog, right? I'm starting to wonder if perhaps some people get a tid upset when I talk about them on the blog -- I mean, I would only say things in good light -- I mean, if I'm talking about you, then I like you!! I'm giving you time - my time, which is precious. So if I mention you on my blog, please understand that it's because I like you. Lots. ;-)

Nothing new with LA -- 45 days... that's all. I'm going to start getting my lyrics together and compiled into one area. I think I'm going to do that tonight. My horoscope told me I should sort and organize today, so I think that's perfect.

My Mama came over for lunch today -- I was going to tell her about going to LA and stuff -- I really wanted her to bring her girlfriend, Pam with her. Pam and I have had our differences but if there was one person who would understand just what it means for me to go to LA and work with a legit producer, it would be Pam. She's very musical. So I was bummed when my Mama told me that she wasn't coming.

I made queso dip and other mexican things and we chatted for a few hours. I told her that I had a flock of men after me -- it's truly strange how I am flypaper for men. I mean, really. I went my entire high school career without so much as a boy glancing at me and here I am 23 and I have 4 men interested in me.

My Mama told me to go for it... I told her I had news for her and then we got sidetracked and I started talking about guys and stuff and she was excited and I told her that wasn't the news.

Unfortunately, she didn't get as excited for LA as I had hoped. I think that I'm the only one who truly knows what this means. I feel that I keep trying to get other people excited and it's draining me. *starts to tear up* I just want people to be happy and proud of me.

My Mama then said that she hoped that I got all the fame and fortune that I wanted/deserved and that she truly meant it. She really did want me to be successful, she just doesn't understand why I want it. We're two different people. She always wanted to be anonymous and for me -- being anonymous scares me. I love when people know who I am. I can't explain it...

She advised that I not tell my step mom and Daddy -- I'm not sure just yet. I mean, my step mom called me on being signed to a record label -- I never told any of my parents -- for real... my Mama also called me on it today -- and both times it's taken me aback. LOL It's like, "wow, y'all actually read those emails with the blog and youtube links I send you! That's awesome!"

I made this blog with the intention of my family reading it -- I was going to be honest and direct -- I was going to share my daily life. Since I don't talk to my family on a daily basis, they can just read what's going on with me, you know? Well I never heard anything back from them on whether or not they ever read it, so I just sort of forgot about it and it just turned into a new blog to have. I really enjoy updating it. Now, I'm learning more people are reading it than I thought and although I'm not really sure what to think about that, I am glad for it because I want to share my life with people. I love it. It's one of my passions.

So I haven't decided on wether or not to talk about it to my parents. I'm going to dinner with them in Lawrence on the 9th, I believe. 9th or the 6th, I can't remember. I'm a tad dyslexic and I believe that I really am. Sometimes I think I read differently than others. But anyhow, I can't decide.

My Dad probably won't say much about it. He's only said one thing to me about my music career. One thing. It was nearly 2 years ago (will be in September -- yes I remember that much.) I asked him if I could borrow $500 to enter this showcase up in Omaha for musicians and I really wasn't very prepared at the time, but it was going to be for producers, A&R people and music execs and I thought I should do it... I emailed him and he called me (I hate it when people do that. Like, I'll text someone and they will call me. I texted you for a reason!! But it was alright that my Daddy did it.) and he said "I looked up about it on the internet and there's nothing bad about it, but there's not much that great about it either... if you want to do it, I'll give you the money..." and I got to thinking and he must have some kind of faith in me if he's willing to loan me $500 to do a music showcase. He wouldn't give it to me and let me waste it if I sucked. (Unless he was trying to teach me a lesson.)

In the end I didn't take the money and I didn't go to the showcase. But before we got off of the phone my Daddy told me that he wanted me to be happy, and that I deserved good things in life, that I deserved to get what I wanted. I had to end the phone call because I started to cry. I hate to let my Daddy see me cry. I'm sitting here crying now typing this -- he means so much to me.

My Mama asked me today if I thought I needed everyone's permission to go do this LA thing and I said "no, I just want to make y'all happy and proud of me..." You know, I'm just trying to keep them in the loop and I'm finally doing something of substance and I just want someone to be proud of me.

Honestly? HONESTLY? I think I'm waiting for my family to jump in and be my number one fans. I think I'm waiting for them to be behind me rooting for me to do my best while I'm in LA. (My Mama said I should just focus and try to do my best.) I think I've seen too many VH1 specials about how Justin Timberlake's Mama drove him to Nashville for competitons, how she traveled with NSYNC and how she's his co-manager now and she's at his shows singing every word he wrote... I think I've seen too many parents in the biz that adore their childrens talent and I have never had that kind of backing.

My Mama always bragged that I have "this voice" and that I was incredible, I was in choir and honor choirs and my parents came to all of my concerts and supported me -- but that's what parents do right? Well, there's no expiration date on that... I'm still wanting them to do that for me and I'm killing myself trying to get some fucking attention.

I want them to understand what an oppertunity this is. I want them to get that I'm releasing my album next year.

MY ALBUM.

Of me.

I want them to understand that I'm going to write thank you's and that they're going to be in there. I want them to get that sometimes people are destined for things and my entire life music is the only thing that has ever made sense for me - that I have a God given talent to write and sing and that going to school didn't fit, but this does -- so why can't you be happy for that?

Why am I the only person on the planet that understands what a huge deal this is? I don't get it.

I've overwhelmed myself -- I'm bawling now, like a little baby -- and really, that's what I still feel like. I am still your little baby, and I still need to be held sometimes.

Of all the blogs, I hope they read this one because it's something I could never say to them directly. It's just something I thought they needed to know. Unfortunately, knowing my luck, they won't read it.

Pic of the Day:


Sometimes I truly believe that she's the only one who ever believes in the things that I can do. She's gotten me here to where I am today... more ways than you can even know.

xoxox

It's Final.

"Hollywood's her favorite scene,
Loves to be surrounded by superstars
that know her name..."

46 days.

I'm going to eventually run out of LA/California lyrics. I have, however, made a California playlist -- 18 songs that have to do with CA, LA or Hollywood. It's pretty spectacular.

First things first, before I get into LA details.

Mitch and I broke up.

That sounds so serious. Well, it was a great 14 days, but it just wasn't going to work out. He wouldn't do it, so I did it.

If I can pass one piece of advice on to you, it would be that you can't change a man. No, I didn't try and change Mitch after 14 days -- but I knew he was never going to change. He smoked and smoked pot like it was going out of style, he drank and got drunk everyday -- and although I do live by the rockstar way, I think I need someone who's more responsible than me. I need someone to hold my head over the toilet and who will try to make me an honest woman. If I continued to date Mitch I would have just gotten back into the party circuit and I really can't do that right now with the situation of my album.

Fortunately, things aren't completely ruined with Drew. Drew was my other option and I thought that by dating Mitch for a hot second that I had ruined things with Drew. I text him today and everything is just fine between us. I thought that he would be upset, but he was actually really cool about everything.

This morning I had a breakfast date. I had to stay up late last night and do something for Fortune and then I had to get my ass outta bed at fucking 7a. That's so wrong... but the date went well and I got roses out of the deal. I think it's sweet when a man gives a woman flowers, unfortunately, I hate roses. I think they stink, but I love what they represent.

So, now that we have all that taken care of -- LA!

Last night after I got home from work, Fortune and I got online and we got my plane tickets!!! Here's the confirmation information. ;-)

http://i31.tinypic.com/vzxa2v.jpg

See?!? I wasn't fucking joking about all this!! :-D

I'm going from May 14-21. May 20th is Fortune's birthday so we're gonna party HARD.

I leave KC at 7:30a and arrive at LAX at 8:55a. I love going to the West Coast time zone because you get to go back in time. Like, when you go to Las Vegas you get there around the same time you left, it's freaking sweet. Man, when I flew to NYC I lost like a whole day! I can't imagine flying to Austrailia. That's gonna suck.

I leave LA the 23rd at 7:05p and get to KC at 12:20p. I love leaving bright and early because I just can't wait to go!! I more than likely won't sleep the 13th. Then I love to come home late late at night because I just never want to leave!

So I know I don't eat meat, but I told Fortune when we're in LA that I'm going to have to have an In and Out burger... I mean, c'mon. It's like, tradition.

Fortune said that the first day I'm there we aren't going to do any music we're just going to go straight from the airport on a mini tour of LA. I totally freaked on the phone when he told me that last night! He said we'll go to Hollywood, Beverly Hills, In and Out... etc... I reckon we'll do the ocean that day. That's good because then I can get that off of my mind and we can make some good shit.

The first night we get there after our little tour day we're going to see some live music in Hollywood. I can't believe this, it's seriously a dream... but I don't care. I'm not waking up.

Pic of the Day:



True story.

xoxox

Still Trippin!

"LA lights, never shine quite as bright as in the movies,
Still wanna go?"

Ahh, alright, so Fortune pushed the trip back to May 16th-23rd, but it's all good because then I'll have a bit of money to take with me, not much, but some and then I can stay longer. YAY!

All I do is freak the FUCK out lately... Don't know if you saw my new vlog - www.youtube.com/heiress89 (number 13) But OMG. I can't believe I'm leaving for LA in - *counts* 49 days!! OMFG!! It just all happened and came at me at once!! That's pretty fucking insane if I do say so myself! It's only 29 days until I get to go up to Omaha and see Tina and Michael Buble!! I'm pretty fucking stoked about that as well.

I'm going to be off work for a long ass time... that's going to rock. 7/8 days in LA... Wow... that sounds like the best thing in the entire world.

I am going to miss Jennifer and mia Bella. I've never been without either of them for that long. The longest I have been without both of them was 5 days... but ehh, we'll all survive and I'm sure Jenn will bring Bella to the airport when she comes to get me! YAAY!

I'm getting my tickets today. Wow. Seriously. I have no words, I must seem retarded.

I've been editing my astro reading that I got from Quan on my birthday and I'm going to load it up so y'all can hear the good parts.

In it he says that this year in starting in February and March and picking up in April and May that I'll start to break away from what was holding me back from my music career. Also, that I'm supposed to "collaborate" with someone. That my music career will not be successful just on my own. He goes farther to say that it could just be someone who's going to play guitar... and tells me when that will happen...

Well looky here. Here it is going to be May when I'm going LA to collaborate with someone! Thank my lucky stars! (Literally!) He also told me to release my single on April 11th, but unfortunately that won't be able to happen. Fudge. Maybe I'll go against management and release the full version of WWWY? anyhow. ;-)

He says this would be the year where I realize the great fan base that I actually have...

Also he said that I would meet a guy between February and April... and oh, Mitch and I started dating mid March.

We're not there yet, but he said October would be incredible for me... I can't fucking wait for that because that's Vegas! WOO!

Quan is insane. He's dead on. I fucking love it. I can't wait to go back to him and tell him everything that's happened to me.

Oh!! He said that I would get restless at Panera (I was working there when I had my session) and 2 months later to the day I quit! Haha... ahh, but telling me I'm going to get restless at a job -- duh. I always am!

So yeah, I'm editing that so I can put the insanely awesome parts up on MP3. What you think about that?

I actually think I agree with Fortune in saying that I need to wait and focus after Omaha. I would probably have taken my Omaha trip for granted if I had gone the day after I got back. I would have been too anxious for LA and rushed through it. Now I can take my time in Omaha and just be awesome up there. I can't wait!

Annd! my next paycheck is the 9th -- that goes to rent, fixing my cell phone and I have to send my Daddy money, then I get paid the 23rd and that goes to Omaha, then I have a paycheck the 7th of May and that will be for LA! YAAAY!

Damn, 49 days. That's like so far but yet so close.

Time to start my countdown!

Ahh, we'll count down to Omaha first and then count down to LA because LA is only 17 days after Omaha! So see, that's not that far!! YAAY!

Alright, Omaha is 29 days away! WOOOO!

Pic of the Day:



I want to tell her she will be okay.

xoxox

The Nature Of The World Today...

"It's kinda hard to keep faith in the things that you do
When everybody turns their back on you..."

So last night was mind blowing.

I talked to Fortune and I'm going to LA in late April, after I get back from Omaha... I think he wanted to me to come during the time that I'm going to be in Omaha - but now obviously, that just won't work, now will it?

I'm going to be there for four or five days and I'm getting my plane ticket like, super soon... well, I guess I have to since it's only like a month away.

Ooh, I need to stop eating.

Oh gawd, speaking of -- yesterday was a total binge day. Mitch and I went to On The Border for dinner last night and I took home half of my food and half of his... then after drinking some I totally ate my leftovers and then Jenn wanted McDonalds so I took her up there and then I got something there! Ew. I'm a disgusting cow.

But back to LA... I asked Fortune if we could do one thing while I was there and he said yes.

I'm going to see the ocean.

I've hyped it so much in my mind over the last 23 years and I'm sure it's not as amazing as I pretend in my mind, but I already know I'm going to cry like a baby when I see it. I'm going to film my reaction of it for the documentary.

Nicole isn't going to be able to go with me to LA to film for the documentary so I'm going to buy 2 new memory cards and tape stuff on my own. That should be interesting. I can kinda see it in my mind, and it seems good. LOL Does that make sense?

I have the best management in the world. I can't believe they set me up with this. It's pretty incredible.

Wow.

I am a little scared to be all alone on my own though. That's going to be different. Wow.

So last night, my phone broke. Apparently it has "water damage" even though it's never been in contact with water. Whatever. My ear piece doesn't work... like, I can't hear people on it. But I have speaker phone, so I've just been doing that.

Yeah. Thankfully I have insurance so it's just going to cost me $50 to get a new one. Now I just have to find $50. I have to pay my daddy his payment for this month, which I still haven't done and I was going to do with my first paycheck, but my check was $1 more than I needed for the phone bill. I guess I'll email him.

I also have to buy those memory cards and then I have to pay for the hotel for Omaha. Oh gawd. So much to pay for and I have no money.

Shitters.

My horoscope and oh how true it is...

You seem to be attracting even more admirers to your cause, whatever that may be. Enjoy the good energy and attention -- things are just about as good as they can get at the moment!

Pic of the Day:



This is a dude.

He's pregnant.

He's due in July.

Oh, by the way, he's transgender and has a wife. She couldn't have a baby but apparently he can!!

You want to know more, google "man pregnant with baby". The Advocate did a good article on him. This is quite controversial.

xoxox

Time Goes By... So Slowly

"Love me or hate me it's still an obsession,
Love me or hate me, that is the question,
If you love me then, thank you,
If you hate me then, fuck you..."

Thank God it's Wednesday! I'm exhausted.

Work was lame last night, it was nice to get off at 8p, though, I actually really liked that. Then I just sat in the lobby and played on my computer for a while.

I finally spoke with my producer... was it just yesterday I was talking about that? I think maybe... or no, I was talking about the documentary. I can't remember if I was talking about my producer or not...

His name is Fortune and he's incredible. He lives in LA and I'm flying out there in June, I believe, to work with him for a week or so. Just me... Jenn can't go because she's a stupid manager at McDonalds and can't take off that much work. Oh well, I'm stoked.

I sit here and fantasize about it several times a day. Isn't that sad? I'm just very excited to do it. My manager has known Fortune for about 10 years or so and Fortune was more than happy to work with me. He likes my style and my work ethic.

Haha... isn't that incredible? Someone saying they like my work ethic? Ha... I have absolutely no drive whatsoever at McDonalds to do anything except get paid and not get yelled at -- but when it comes to music... well music isn't "work." Music is life.

I wish I had more plans to share with you on LA, but it's still in the process of being worked out between our schedules and stuff... I don't have a plane ticket or anything. LOL But when I do you bet your sweet scooper that I will let you know!

I get paid from McD today... that's a yay... of course Jenn's check goes straight to her parents which is superdumb... mine just has to pay for the cell phone bill. Ehh, I wish that was free... Tonight her parents are taking her grocery shopping. I made the list... I made a great list. List's are something that I'm very talented at. :-)

I'm so hungry. No food here til 7p when Jenn gets home.

I'm so tired. I wasn't ready to get up yet.

I want White Castle.

I'm being incredibly random right now...

Pic of the Day:



Neil Patrick Harris is AWESOME. It seems like it's taken forever for this damn movie to come out. Harold and Kumar Go to White Castle is one of my favorite movies and I about shit myself when I found out that they were doing a sequel.

This promo poster is as real as it gets. NPH on a Unicorn.

xoxox

Pity For Pity's Sake

"Girl, put your records on,
Tell me your favorite song,
You go ahead let your hair down,
Sapphire and faded jeans,
I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead and let your hair down,
You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow..."

That song is incredible. Corrine is effortless.

I just have to make it through today and then I have two days off, that's what I'll just keep telling myself today. I'm so tired. There is no reason on earth to ever get me up at 9a. I went to bed at about 230a... I just can't go to bed early. It's impossible.

I'm sitting at Panera waiting for Jennifer to get off of Coldstone so we can go to McD. We work at 2p today. Well I work at 2... she has a manager meeting at 2. I only have to work until 8p, though... so at least I don't have to work that long and hopefully it'll be all busy while I'm there. Then when I'm off I'll have to wait for Jennifer to get off, which is at 11p -- but thankfully I have my computer, so no worries.

Last night I was the last person to take my break because last Monday when I found out about Britney's HIMYM appearance I asked Jennifer if this Monday I could take my break at 730p so I could watch the show.

So everyone else's breaks were over with at like, 630p and I'm wait, wait, waiting... LOL But that's alright because I got the entire break room to myself to watch it!

Britney did really good on it, she was fatter than she probably should have been to be on TV, but given her cicumstances I think that she did really well and looked really good. She delieved her lines great.

As far as my new side salad diet. It was completely (okay, not completely) ruined yesterday. Yesterday McD got back the Southwest salads, which was completely my favorite thing ever. So I had one... so yay it was a salad, but baah because the dressing has more calories than I planned on and the salad is waay bigger than a side salad. But at least I still had a salad. Today I've had an iced tea and one small piece of bread (sample size at Panera.) Tonight I'm having my side salad.

Yesterday after I got back my electric I watched the episode of Desperate Housewives I missed, since I don't watch TV, I watch everything online and I don't know how I missed this new episode, but I was reading USA Today and they were doing a catch up on all the shows and it said that Carlos was blind, and I was like "what? when did this happen?" Yeah, so I went back to ABC online and turns out I missed an episode! So that was a nice little treat. I can't wait for new GA (Grey's Anatomy) and DH (Deperate Housewives) episodes.

Tomorrow night Mitch is coming over. Tomorrow should be interesting. Well first off, when Jennifer and I get home tonight we need to clean. Nearly two weeks without electricity doesn't do well for the upkeep of our house. There's a shit load of trash we need to take out, do some dishes and just straighten up before Mitch comes over and before Kristi & Co. come over on Saturday.

So tomorrow Jenn has to work until 5p at Cold Stone (at which I'm supposed to have an interview sometime this week...) and then she's going to McD to get our paychecks, then she's grocery shopping with her Mom at 6p... after that she's coming home to get drunk with me and Mitch! Meanwhile, until Jennifer gets home Mitch and I are just gonna chill and watch a movie or something. I was going to say we could watch Superbad, but nooo... Jenn would be jealous so we'll watch that later tomorrow night.

I'm aching to go record. I haven't heard from my producer since Snake Saturday, that irritates me. Regardless on if I go to LA or not, I'm definitely going to record soon. I have to get something out and I need to film in studio stuff for my documentary.

Yeah, I haven't talked about that in a while... we haven't been recording as much as I had originally thought we would be - but then again we've only been filming for a month and we're doing it for 6. We are, however filming Thursday, Friday and Saturday, so I think she wants to start filming more. That's good. :-)

Alright, I've written enough for today.

Pics of the Day:



I love this pic of me. My hair looks like sex. To go with it, here's a comment that a viewer left on one of my YouTube vlogs --

"I think you are totally cute and adorable, I think if you lost weight, you could be like a KNOCKOUT! first time I saw your video, and saw the foundation for a show stopper girl!your really pretty."

That comment made my life.



Holy crap... look at how much I've changed from pic one and two... Pic two was in Memphis... let's see... 2 years ago, I reckon. I took that with my RAZR phone when I had TMobile. (Come to think of it, the first pic was taken with my Chocolate now that I have Verizon... haha, the best pics are impromptu.) My hair was so short! Wow! It's amazing to see how much I've transformed. I'm proud of me.

xoxox

Everything is DYING!

"let me break the ice, allow me to get you right,
Won't you warm up to me,
baby, I can make you feel, hot, hot, hot, hot..."

My phone is dying, my laptop is dying as we speak... this will have to be a very short blog unless they turn our lights on right now.

I don't think they're going to be on until tomorrow.

We paid it early this morning because all the places to pay it were closed yesterday -- Jenn thinks they'll be on today and she even promised Bella... I'm like, "don't make promises to my dog that you can't keep!"

I mean, think of all the people that paid it Friday, Saturday and Sunday when the places were open... those people are going to get their lights on before we will... so I think ours are going to be on tomorrow.

Tonight is the HIMYM with Britney. I think I heard it's an hour long... that's crap because my break is only 30 minutes. I am more than sure that I'll be able to catch it online though, so I'm not too worried about seeing it.

Last night on my break I got to see the end of the Memphis vs MS game... that was a really good game... man, I bet MS is kicking themselves today, the clock was down the final seconds, MS had the ball and they had one chance to tie the game and they fucking blew it... It was really hot.

No pic of the day today -- I'll do two tomorrow -- no time. Battery is running out.

xoxox

EDIT:

I retract my previous statements... YAY FOR LIGHTS!!!! THEY'RE ON! WOO!

McLovin!

"We are young, heartache to heartache we stand
No promises, no demands
Love is a battlefield
We are strong, no one can tell us were wrong
Searchin our hearts for so long, both of us knowing
Love is a battlefield..."

Happy Easter! I still barely understand the meaning of Easter, except that it has something to do with Jesus and a lot to do with chocolate bunnies and colored eggs.

Jennifer called her mom last night and asked if we could go grocery shopping today (instead we're going on Wednesday) and her Mom said "well are you going some place to have dinner tomorrow??" Meaning like one of my family members or something, I presume... and Jenn's like "no..." And then her mom said, "well you could come down here... we're having turkey" and Jenn said "Mom, that's a meat."

Her Mom is just never gonna get that.

I invited Kristi, Lewis and Peyton over for lunch this coming weekend. I'm thinking about making some mexican food... I figure I could make some taco meat, (that Jenn and I won't eat) queso, chips, salsa, lettuce, taco shells... people could have nachos, taco salad, or tacos...

I'm so tired of working. I hate work. I seriously wish I could just win the fucking lottery and I'd never have to do anything ever again... Alright, it's not so much work as it is the places that I work. I know that. If I was just doing my music then I'd be completely content... but I'm not, so I'm bitchy.

It's almost time for MB! The 26th of next month, Jennifer and I are going up to Omaha to see Michael Buble with Tina. I can't wait! I've waited years to see this man perform! Also, I'm excited to see Tina because I haven't seen her in a while and she wants me to get her drunk! Well, Tina, be careful what you ask for!!

Pic of the Day:


Peep show.

As The World Turns

"hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar..."

Ohh... yesterday I said that it was going to be a long day, and oh my, you have no idea. I got to work and they seperated Jennifer and I - she was in the back window all night... then they "trained" me on fries. I told them I had worked for this McD for a week and a previous McD for 6 months and I really thought that I should know how to do fries by then... but still they fucking taught me everything. They taught me how to work the hopper, drop the fries and where to drop them, when to drop them, how to take them out of the grease, how to salt them, how to make a small, medium, large...

Gawd.

If that wasn't bad enough I was then put on fries -- which didn't bother me so much as that I was basically waiting for 3 minutes and 9 seconds, taking them out of the grease and putting them in the holder. This chick Laura would come over and salt them and take the ones that she needed and then drop the next fry... so for a few hours I was just watching numbers go down and taking fries out of the grease... I WASN'T EVEN REALLY DOING FRIES - - - OR ANYTHING!

That's what made me the most upset.

Enough about that.

So we came home and were completely bored without electricity so we went downtown to cash Jennifer's check at this 24 hour check place and the dude talked forever about Jennifer's heritage. I have no idea why he asked her where she was born anyhow... it was completely random.

Then we headed to Chubby's where, unfortunately, it was Friday so it was packed from the bars. I got tots and an egg sandwich, but there wasn't mayo on my sandwich, so I was trying to find my white trash waitress to get me mayo and some more water, since I had been out since I got there and she was no where to be found.

It wasn't after I gave in and took 2 bites out of my sandwich that she came from in the back with some dude. (I think they were doooooing it.) Then she looked around and asked us, "did you see them leave?" Jenn was like *scoff* "no..."

She went up to one of the police officers in Chubby's (on duty) and they both walked outside to find the people that walked out on their ticket. Then I said to Jennifer, "now my waitress isn't even in the building!"

She came back and finally filled my water and bitched to us about the walk out... like I'm going to be sympathtic towards you when you've been a shitty waitress to me... I don't care you have to pay $11 from your tips for the table... that's not my problem - you should be more attentive. We paid our bill and left. No tip for you.

People need to earn tips from us, and not paying attention to my water glass or coming back to see if everything is alright is not earning a tip from me. That's just how I feel.

Pic of the day:


Jennifer and I right after Justin's HBO special last August in NYC. My eyes are red because this was taken, literally 2 minutes after I touched him. :-) Best moment of my life. This is one of the best photos of me and Jennifer.

xoxox

Ain't That Right?

"I'm sorry bout the attitude I need to give when I'm with you
But no one else will take this shit from me..."

That's a great lyric. There are some that just describe me and Rob Thomas has written a lot of them.

It's gonna be a long day...

I work 4-12a - starting today all I'm eating is a side salad when I'm at work. Well, that's the plan. We both know that might be the case for a while but that I'll end up eating more sooner or later.

*goes to weigh self*

Ehh, not bad, but not that great either. What's today? Friday? By Tuesday I want to be down 8 pounds. That's my goal. Let's see if I can do it.

Didn't get to see Mitch last night -- he was tired and "soar". *bangs hand on head* I wish people came out of the womb knowing how to spell. Knowing when to use there, their and they're -- and most definitely knowing the difference between soar and sore.

I'm a stickler for spelling.

So last night, in lieu of Mitch, Jennifer and I hung out, talked, computed with Gemma and then watched two movies. We watched Fast and the Furious and The Forgotten. The Forgotten was actually really good. I liked it a lot. Jenn bought it used about a month ago or something and I hadn't watched it yet. She thought it was going to more of a horror movie, or suspense, I think and it was mostly sci-fi, which is cool with me. I don't mind those movies one bit!

Well, I definitely enjoyed my days off -- and good thing for that too since I'm working every day until next Wednesday and Thursday. I'm not used to this "full time" thing. It's kinda gross.

Do you know what today is?

Eight years ago today NSYNC released their record breaking No Strings Attached album which went on to surpass and hold all album sales - EVER. 2.4 MILLION copies in ONE WEEK.

And I am still proud to say I was a part of that.

Also, one year ago today I signed my record deal! I can't believe I've been signed with ZT for one whole year! In the past year I've recorded over 21 songs with them. My album is currently slated for release next Spring/Summer. I was just talking with my manager about all this last night, actually. This summer I'm still hoping to go to LA to work with a producer that's been inquring about me. So -- all signs pointed up.

Pic of the Day:



Taken one year ago today at the signing of my deal. This was right after I signed -- I was a little overwhelmed and a lot happy!

xoxox

Fuck My Life.

"Vogue..."

I typed a very long blog and then it said "my request could not be completed" when I pushed "publish blog".

Alright, let's try this shit again...

So last night there was a hole in communication between friends and we didn't get to see Christina and Taber... but Mitch did get to come over and Jennifer and Mitch got to spend some time together. She agrees with me... he sounds just like Jonah Hill. ;-) I think we're all going to try to go out to Banana Joe's tonight for dollar margarita's. What's that? What did I say? Dollar margarita's.

So yeah, Mitch, Jennifer and I had a good time last night. We had pizza and talked about how much we shouldn't be eating it, but there wasn't anyone there to stop us! Argh! They drank Jack and Pepsi because they're down like that... and I had... well, margarita's.
Mitch spent the night last night because his work is actually closer to our house than his own. Figures.

I applied at Cold Stone... apparently they need another day person so I might get to work with Jennifer there too! Yay for that! I love working with her. She's awesome. I had applied at Cold Stone the other day, but apparently the manager never got the application, so I sent it again. They had thought that I sent it to the wrong store, but nope... it was the right one. Whatevers! I hope I get a call back today or something since Jennifer's there. The way that Jennifer and I look at it is, that's just more money to save for Vegas.

Speaking of which, and since my blog is going downhill since the stupid blog people don't know what SEND means, I'll finally tell y'all what's up with that.

So Timberlake is having a golf tournament. Well, not him specifically -- but there's one named after him and he's going to host it and play in the celebrity pro-am for the next -- wait for it... 5 years. So that means, regardless of wether or not he has an album (he better have an album in the next five years) we still get to see him for exactly one week every year.

Yes, we're going every year.

To Vegas.

For one whole week.

Sunday to Sunday. I don't have my paper with me that tells me the new totals, but I think I might be able to remember them. We were going to stay at the MGM Grand, which is my favorite hotel in the entire world... and although I haven't traveled the world, I can say that without hesitation. So we were going to stay there, but it was going to cost $1500 for the week and the total cost for the trip was going to be $4200. Which, c'mon, that isn't bad for a week in Vegas, but we needed to cut that price down just a tad since we're having a bit of a rough year. So now we're staying at the world's largest Super 8.

God, how I wish I was joking.

It's surprizingly nice and it has a 24 hour pool... not even the MGM has that. It's right off the strip -- behind Hooters.

God, how I wish I was joking.

So we booked our hotel, Sunday-Sunday (October 13-19) and our car. The car actually didn't cost that much, only like $444 for the whole week with insurance and all that extra crap.

Yeah, I can't remember the rest of the details, but now it's only going to be about half of what we had originally projected. And then divide that by two and a week in Vegas isn't going to cost that much!

Pic of the Day:

Jennifer and I the last time we were in Vegas, drinking on the Strip. It was her favorite part of the trip.

xoxox

If The Bright Lights Don't Recieve You...

"Some things in this world, man, they don't make sense
Some things you don't need until they leave you,
Them the things that you miss..."

All I wanted was a Big Mac -- but I don't eat meat, so all I wanted was a Big Mac - no meat. What did I get? A Big Mac, no meat, no onions, no lettuce. So that's bread, bread, bread, pickles, cheese, sauce.

Ew.

I had them re-make it.

The grill people really don't pay attention at all. We were steady last night at work and then I'd be standing there waiting for them to hand me food and then they'd be like [insert accent] "you need?" YES I FUCKING NEED IT!! IS IT ON THE SCREEN?? Why can't they just listen? This, among other things, I will never have an answer to.

Jenn and I both got off work early from McDonalds last night and then went home to get some clothes to wash and stuff. I, of course, wanted to bring Miss Bella, but Jenn wouldn't let me so I told her that she had to tell Bella.

When we got to her parents house we watched TMZ and Access Hollywood -- both of which, are very lame I've come to realize. Then we watched this movie from 2005 called Urban Legends: Bloody Mary -- it had Kate Mara in it (she's in The Open Road with Timberlake, for those who don't know...) and let's just hope she's become a better actress since 2005. She's had loads of gigs since then so I'm sure she's grown some.

The movie was good and bad - if that makes sense. The effects were rather lame and some of the lines were very cheesy, the actors weren't that great (especially the brother "David") but overall I think it was worth seeing.

I'm not into scary movies one bit, and this one had one particularly gorey scene which I actually believe makes it worth seeing. Go to Blockbuster or Netflix and get it. ;-)

Then we rented The Simpson's movie on PPV. It was pretty good -- I hadn't seen it yet. I still get totally in awe that some of those people do just about half the voices for the cast. That's insane. Those are very talented voice actors.

We went to bed at about 5a, but Jenn said she didn't go to bed until about 630a because she was texting Gemma and Tina -- who are now apparently BFF's. Yaaaay you!

I didn't wake up until about 130p and then I had a few texts from Mitch. I guess we're going to dinner now... it was a movie... I'm still not really sure. LOL

I took my "hot" shower and by "hot" I mean "cold". I hate Jenn's parents house. They don't believe in thick walls, you can hear everything going on in all of the living rooms (not my idea of privacy...) and they don't believe in water pressure. I've been to hotels that had better water pressure than this!! I've been to like, Motel 6's that had better water pressure than this!

I judge a shower based on the water pressure and how hot the water will stay... well hot. I don't need to peel my skin off in the shower, but I don't want it to be lukewarm either. As for water pressure - I need great water pressure because my thick curly hair is already a bitch to wash and if I don't have good enough water pressure (like at, oh say, Jenn's parent's house...) then the middle of my hair basically doesn't even get wet! And if it's that hard to get my hair wet, imagine how hard it is to get the soap out!!

I made do with what I had today, unfortunately... and I basically took a cold shower and then turned it all the way hot and rinsed at the end like that.

Pic of the Day:



I love the cat's expression here -- "hey, man... your nose could eat me for lunch, I don't want to know about what your mouth could do..." and the dog's just saying, "what's this? a new toy?"

xoxox

Tick Tock Tick Tock

"But if I die tonight at least I can say I did what I wanted to do tell me how 'bout you?"

Who's got 4 minutes? :-) I've got 4 minutes to save the world, thankfully I have the HQ version of the album and radio edit for Justin and Madonna's new song. That should help me save the world successfully.

Did everyone have a good St. Patty's Day? [insert Irish accent here] Mine was whatever. Like I said before, I celebrated on Saturday.

Tomorrow I get to take a hot shower at Jenn's parent's house! Yay for that! My hair needs a good washing. And then tomorrow night I'm off work and I'm spending some time with Mitch and possible Christina and Taber. Taber is from my hometown and I went to HS with Christina. They're really awesome people.

I finally got my salad last night! It wasn't everything I had hoped. Tonight I think I'm eating a sandwich no meat. My not eating meat is not because of a "diet" -- I just think that cows and chickens are beautiful creatures and we don't need to eat them. Also, they're bad for you. With all the hormones that are injected into those animals to make them grow bigger, faster now, there are 8 year olds with DD breasts that are starting their periods! That's just not normal.

I need to lose weight. Yeah, that's a whole different blog for a whole different day.

Pic of the Day:



The cover for 4 minutes. It's hot. Do I really need more of a reason than Justin and Madonna?

St. Patrick's Day

"Come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions, a hundered times
February, won't you be my Valentine
and we'll both be safe if it was just til St. Patrick's Day"

I'm not sure if I have any Irish in me, but today I fake it, right? Of course, I celebrated St. Patty's on Snake Saturday and I got drunk enough for the everyone over the holiday. (Note to self, be more careful next time when drinking with people who are ACTUALLY Irish.)

I hope y'all are enjoying this bitter cold weather. I upgraded to three blankets last night. I put all of Bella's blankets in one of her beds. (She's got three beds and a ton of blankets, but she usually migrates from bed to bed throughout the week... I just put them all in one so she could be warmer.)

My fingers are so cold as a type this. Brrrrr...

Without any electricity there's not much to do here. Unfortunately, Jennifer and I have been spending our time together at the house eating. Fortunately, we've been strictly vegetarian! Jenn and I have tried to be vegetarian since the New Year, but its very hard when you've lived 22 of your years eating whatever, and the to just cut out all the meat one day.

Jenn's been doing fantastic. She hasn't had any meat for about a month, which is amazing. I'm just nearly shorter than her on that at about 3 weeks.

Last night at McDonalds I wanted to get one of their salads, but of course, without chicken. I should have had Jenn promo my meal off because the other manager on duty said that crew wasn't allowed to have those... then he proceeded to say we could have #1, 2, 4, 5, 9, or 10. For those who don't work at McDonalds thats... Meat, Meat, Meat, Chicken, Chicken Nuggets, Fish.

I got the fish with a side salad.

Well, he didn't really leave me much choice, now did he?

Tonight there's a different manager on duty and Jennifer said that she would promo my meal off tonight and that I could have the salad I wanted. She's not favoring me or anything, c'mon! It's a salad!!! I DON'T EAT MEAT!

Speaking of favoring me -- she really doesn't. I'm very proud of her. I asked her if I could take my superdumb tie off last night and she made me keep it on. I hate those things, I feel like I'm being strangeled.

Picture of the Day:



Justin Moore (right) showing off why I've got tickets to the gun show. (He's in Ingram Hill) He's got his green on -- do you?

xoxox

And I'm Down With The Devil...

"Used to call me dummy when my nose was fucking runny,
Now I'm fucking bunnies gettin' fucking Matchbox Twenty money"

I was too tired [and cold] last night to update when I got home from work, so voila! Here I am.

I had a date on Snake Saturday... his name is Mitch... he's pretty awesome. However, I'm beginning to think that I'm flypaper for guys. I've got 3 trying to pin me down. (I think I might just let Mitch.)

One of the guys I was never really interested in and he lost his chance MONTHSSSSS ago. He's kinda an "oily bo-hunk" as my Mama would put it. The 2nd one I've always thought was cute and sweet but he just took too damn long to come around.

Mitch has his head on straight. He knows what he wants in life and we have a lot in common. He's Swedish, like me... and his birthday is my lucky day. It's kinda crazy actually. Every October 22nd I take off work and think I always have something going on... I have no idea why, I've done that for a while now and whadayaknow? It's his birthday. :-) Ironic.

I'm kinda like a rock actually, I fall fast and hard. I suppose I would do good in Hollyweird - I tend to move pretty fast with my relationships. I think it's because I hate the dating part so much. Dating sucks. I'd rather just have you be my boyfriend, I'm your girlfriend... and we'll figure the rest out as we go along.

Photo's of the Day:



I told you there would be two photos of the day today because TinyPic wouldn't work yesterday.

See! Everyone ends up working for McDonalds once in their life. (alright, not everyone... but even Justin Timberlake!) Justin later on went to say that he regretted the McDonalds deal he did -- and I don't blame him! I regret working for McDonalds all the time!

Actually, the reason I saved this photo of Justin was because he's wearing the shirt he wore when I met him in 2003. ;-)



Justin and I in September 2003 - I think I need an updated photo. The actual hard copy one I have is autographed. I still remember every single word he said to me. You can see my paw wrapped around that gorgeous shirt of his.

xoxox

I Am The American Dream

"Do I have to change my name?
Will it get my far?
Should I lose some weight?
Am I gonna be a star?"

Yesterday I had my first day of work. I was told by the manager that I had orientation with that I would be watching videos and then doing small things and whatnot... so I'm basically following Jennifer around like a puppy dog and I don't want to watch videos so she just puts me on drinks with this white trash girl that talks to much.

I have OCD and so I'm putting the lids on specifically and lining them up specifically and this chick is dancing around like a lunatic and then she said something about how precise I was and I said that I had OCD... she said "oh yeah, I have OCD like baaaad." and I was like, "no, I don't think you do..." I never noticed an obsessive behavior once with her in the 4 or 5 hours I was with her... I always did my tasks the same and lined everything up in the same spots and she just was very sloppy with everything.

Now, I know that her being sloppy doesn't mean that she doesn't have OCD, but I can usually tell and I didn't see it with her at all.

I was supposed to work until 9p but I ended up staying until 12a. I have 35 hours next week. That's good because all this work is going to help get us on the right track and get us to Las Vegas in October.

I was going to explain more about Vegas in October, but actually I have to get ready to go out. I'm going out with a few friends tonight for Snake Saturday - a St. Patty's Day thing down in Northtowne.

Perhaps tomorrow I'll tell you about Vegas... perhaps not. I'm not sure if I'm working or not. Hopefully yes, hopefully no... I don't know!

See you kiddies later.

No Pic of the Day today... I can't get TinyPic to load. I'll do two tomorrow.

xoxox

My Apartment Is Like An Icebox

"I got this icebox where my heart used to be...
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold..."

Last night I used two blankets, I slept pretty good - I wasn't too cold - but it's not even the coldest night this week. I woke up and went out into the living room to get on my computer and I was freezing! It's SO cold out here... then I looked at Bella, she was all wrapped up inside her tent but she was still shaking. So I put more clothes on her. Even dogs get cold, you know?

Let me give you an idea of how cold my apartment is - our lights got turned off, what? 2 days ago? There's still ice in our freezer -- it hasn't melted.

Tonight I start my job at McDonalds. I'm only scheduled 4-9, but it's something. I apparently have to watch videos and like, learn how to do fries or something... I told them I worked at McD before... why waste your time training me a second time when I can just start working.

Actually, now that I think about it, I was never trained last time I worked at McD. Since Jennifer worked there a week before I did, they basically threw me into the front window and said, "here, do this..." and I kinda just did it. (That was when my anxiety wasn't as strong. Now I'm not afraid to have a panic attack. LOL) I prefered the back drive-thru... then I didn't have to deal with anyone but the customers and I was in my little hole.

This McD isn't as busy as the one I used to work at... but enough with McD. Wait... I'm starting on a Friday night, just realized that. I started on a Friday night at the last McD I worked at. It must be a "thing". Well I remember how busy the last one was on Friday nights, so I guess this will be a good comparisson.

Last night I had a dream about NSYNC. Now, first off let me say that literally every single night I have a dream with Justin in it. I'm not lying about that or stretching the truth one bit. He's alwasys in it, and no it's not always like a "nasty" dream or whatever you dirty cows. Sometimes we'll be talking, sometimes he's casually stride past me in a supermarket or something, or sometimes we'll just be talking.

There are a few dreams of Justin that I refuse to forget, but those are for me to keep to myself.

I've been extremely lucky with my dreams since I was a little girl, I've always dreamed in color (which I hear is rare) and I can control my dreams. Like if I want to say something to someone, instead of "dream Jodie" saying it, "Jodie" will say it. Does that make sense... and along with that - I also talk in my sleep. Back to controlling my dreams, I feel I need to elaborate on that some more -- I can go left when my dream wants me to go right, I can not jump off the cliff when my dream wants me to... does this all make sense? Probably not. I've never flown in my dreams, however. Some people have dreams of floating or flying and I can't recall a time that I ever have.

Back to NSYNC -- like I said I have Justin in my dreams everynight, but a dream with all 5 members is pretty rare for me. Occasionally an extra member will be in my dreams but I have only had a handful of dreams where all 5 members were in it.

I can't really remember the beginning of the dream, but I was following them around a KMart (it must've been in 2000 or so because Justin had his HUGE afro and I was telling Chris how I had a FuMan Skeeto shirt.) The lights were low in the KMart which led me to believe this was an after hours thing for fans only... I found these amazing black and white photos of the boys that I have never seen before (they really were breathtaking, I wish they existed.) and I wanted to get them but I didn't have any money... so there I am following Justin around like a puppy dog while Joe is on a razor scooter and Lance is looking at the home decorations (seriously) and the general manager of the KMart comes over and tells me that I can have these 2 photos of Justin that I really wanted, all I had to do was pay 27 cents. (Specifiacally.)

So we go to check out and the boys are the cashiers, and of course I go to Justin's line and he's being a brat and playing with the loud speaker. (Something Justin would SO do - you know this if you've seen a CFTC -- "Blue light special on lane Lance.") And it's then I find out this is all for charity and for every transaction the guys ring up KMart gives $50 to wherever. So I'm the first one in line for Justin's lane and I get these two photos and it seriously only costs me 27 cents.

That's about it. It was pretty cool and nice to have a dream about all 5 of them again.

Photo of the Day:



Photo taken of Bella just before I started todays blog. She was too cold so I put lotsa clothes on her. She's got a green t-shirt on, a heavy sweater (that Tina bought her for her birthday!) a hoodie sweatshirt (that my step mom got her for xmas!) her Pampered oversized sweatshirt (it's usually baggie and now it's tight because she's got all those other clothes on...) and a scarf on. (that my step mom made for her -- I have a matching one!) I hope that keeps her warm!!!

xoxox

Hand Me Down

"Gonna make you break out of your shell, cuz they tell you to
Gonna make you like the way they lie, better than the truth,
They tell you everything you wanted someone else to say,
They're gonna break your heart."

No lights.

As Rachel put it, it was a "forgotten bill" and not a local mistake. Unfortunately, the bill wasn't so much as "forgotten" as we're "broke".

In an attempt to be "honest" I'll tell you that Jennifer and I have not paid our electric bill once this entire winter. It's about $900 now. The electric company didn't leave a note saying that our bill had been disconnected, and although we have been rude to them not to pay it, they still have told us. Right?

Under the "cold weather protection" they can't legally turn off our electric when the 7 day forcast predicts it to be below, I believe, 40 degrees... it might be 32 however. Therefore, this entire winter we didn't pay our bill. We figured we would just pay enough to keep them on before March 31st (I get paid the 22nd) which is when the cold weather protection thing ends. So imagine my surprise when I wake up on March 12th and they're off!! I'm not too pleased. We don't have enough to pay them until the 22nd when I get paid, but that's a Saturday so I reckon they will be off until the 24th.

Today I had orientation at McDonalds. I hate McDonalds. It's crap. Every single person I met at orientation today smelled. They apparently don't know how to bathe. (Speaking of which, I'm really looking forward to cold showers again. Of course, the last time our lights were off for two weeks it's was about 100 degrees outside -- even then the pure cold water wasn't so much "refreshing" as it was literally "breathtaking".)

The good thing about working for McD again is that I will have insurance. I loved when I got in a car wreck and Vicodin only cost me $4. There's so much that I really need to go to the doctor for. I also need to start seeing a psychiatrist. I need to have my own perscription for Xanax and anti-depressants. So if there's only one reason to stay at McD it will be medication!

Photo of the Day:


Me the first time I met Peyton, my friend Kristi's [adorable] baby boy. He's genuinely perfect.


xoxox

I'll Use That Voice That You Find Annoying...

"My fingertips are holding onto the cracks in our foundation,
And I know that I should let go, but I can't."

I had a very interesting night last night. I was chatting on MSN with my friends Tina and Gemma about nothing inparticular when I thought I heard a knock at the door. I was reassured it was a knock when the "doorbell" went off. (By doorbell, I mean Bella.)

I hate it when people knock on my door. I never answer the door unless it's like, Kristi or my Mama. It's never them however, so I just never answer the door.

This, of course, was another one of those times.

At my door was Randy... the manager of the McDonalds I used to work at... the reason why on my applications under "reason for leaving", I put "sexual harrasment".

I stopped talking to Randy on his birthday. (9/14/07) Over Christmas after I came back from my parents house in Wamego there was a Christmas card waiting for me and Jennifer from him. That scared me, but yet I thought it was somewhat nice, now his knocking on my door at whatever time of night (I think it was about 11:20p) when I'm alone scares me.

I just backed away and went back to talking to Gemma. She was shocked to say the least. :-)

Last night I stayed up with Jennifer until about 5a. I do feel bad when she stays up that late because she had to get up and start a new job this morning. She got some rest, however, so that's good. There's just no other time for us to spend together.

I had some wicked dreams last night. I had a dream that Jennifer and I went to LA and when we arrived we were riding down this HUGE escalator that was basically verticle. It was outside and I was taking pictures of the beautiful LA lights. Then we got to our hotel and our room was huge as well. (There were about 3 sleeping options.)

The next morning we awoke and Jennifer had to leave to go somewhere, I was doing my regular routine... trying to get her to be as late as possible. We went outside and she told me there was a continental breakfast, but it was just bananas and dry bran cereal. I was going to go get some bananas anyway. Jenn was going into the main lobby part too, but I can't remember why. While I was getting some bananas (about 4) I made her ask what the easiest way to get to a beach was since I had been in LA for a night now and I still hadn't seen the ocean.

We walked outside and there was a beautiful hiking trail right behind the hotel and I told Jennifer when she got back that we would go walk it. I got some bananas and ended up getting some cereal too. (Which I was eating out of a ziplock baggie.) I sat down on a park bench outside and then my friend Rikki came up to me and sat next to me. I had no idea she was in LA too, and she was eating cereal out of a Ziplock bag as well.

I then tried to convince her to go to Las Vegas together (for Justin's Golf Tournament. I'll explain more later.) and that was a battle. Usually regular Rikki is up for that sorta thing, but apparently dream Rikki is just interested in cereal.

I woke up and I was on my stomach. (I hate being on my stomach.) I don't think I was ready to get up but as I turned over something just wasn't right. The air wasn't moving. I opened my eyes, and even without my glasses or contacts in (I'm now, as they would say, "blind as a bat".) I could tell that the fan wasn't on. I figured that Jenn accidentally turned it off on her way out this morning, so I got up and went to flip on the switch. Wait, it was already on. I opened the door and went into the hallway and that light was off and then came to the conclusion that out electricity was off.

I walked to the front door and peeked outside to see if it was just off because of a shortage or off because we failed to pay our bill. No note that it had been disconnected on purpose, so there's hope for me yet.

I bet I should end this one, for it's getting pretty long, and my computer battery will only last so long...

Photo of the Day:

There would only be one reason why this Chihuahua is cuter than Bella. Only one... because she's got a cute little heart on her! Adorable, right? I still think that Mia Bella is cuter... and she may not have a heart in her fur, but she's got a heart of (figurative) gold.

xoxox

Inroduction To Jodie

"I got a house but I need new furniture,
Why spend mine when I can spend yours?"

It suddenly came to me... I need a public blog. I have a blog on both of my myspaces. (www.myspace.com/jodieplatz and www.myspace.com/officialjodie) but no one in my family has a myspace, except my super cool ULes.) I have a Facebook (and so does my Mama!) but it doesn't have a blog option. I used to have a xanga, but that was incredibly childish.

I have a lot to say and sometimes I wonder if I bother people with pushing them to listen to me. I always email people and tell them about my new blogs and vlogs. (www.youtube.com/heiress89) I only do that because I want them to be involved in my life somehow and I can't say these things to anyone if I think they're really listening, so I blog and vlog about it hoping that they will get to know me that way. I'm not sure if it's working.

I think this new blog is a last ditch attempt at getting people to get to know me for me. Here, I will blog once a day, no matter how mundane my day has been. I will try and be as raw as possible here and show you my life honestly and candidly.

I'll try to ease you into the good stuff and I'll try and be consistant with my posts and accurate with my facts. I'll also try and be as blunt as possible. I sometimes type like I talk and anyone who's heard me speak know that reading it isn't any better!!

Tomorrow brings another blog.

Photo of the Day:



Justin inducts Madonna into the Rock & Roll Hall of Fame in NYC 3/10/08

I love this photo because I think it's adorable. Both Justin and Madonna looked incredible last night. I think Justin looked the best he's looked in a while. I think the hair is very "early Justified" but it looks good on him. He looks 22 again! LOL And of course, Madonna? She can do no wrong. She's Madonna!

xoxox