Photo Post

"Now you wanna call me on my phone,
Every time you see another boy in my door
Oh boy, you shoulda thought of that before,
Now you wanna come home when you're alone,
It's the same 'ol, same 'ol
Sad scenario, every time you say you wanna be solo
Oh boy you shoulda never let me go
But you've done it before and now I know it's the
same 'ol, same 'ol..."

Let's get down to bizznass.

Tomorrow Jenn and I are starting a 12 week boot camp to lose weight. The goal is to lose between 50-60 pounds. We'll be taking photos of the journey and recording our weight, inches and sizes.

The plan is to work out for (at least) 30 minutes everyday, there will be a series of fasts and when we're not fasting we're on a restricted calorie vegetarian diet.

The Vegan plan is too hard to do at this moment. So, scratch that I said that -- we're doing a vegetarian diet. After we complete this 12 week program, we'll talk about being Vegan. It is a goal for us though.

We have 2 "free days" in the 12 week plan, and 2 planned "free days" -- when you're on a "free day" you're still expected to only eat what's needed and remain vegetarian. Our planned free days are August 1st (when we're going out with a friend who's moving far far away...) and August 4th (when we're moving. We're also buying dinner for those who are moving... Gotta have energy!)

Jenn asked me what I was going to do about Rachel because I'm in a restricted calorie week the week that I'm there and I told her that I was just going to behave as best as possible.

My life normally revolves around food, which is not normal or good for anyone... and I'll be with RACHEL -- life should revolve around that, not what we're going to eat. I'll deal with it when I get there. There's always small portions and fasting when I come home. I'm not going to let 4 days ruin 12 weeks. That's what I told Jenn. :-)

Reasons why I should do this 12 week program/boot camp:

I'm incredibly fat. No, scratch that. I'm incredibly morbidly obese.

Do you know what part of that sentence makes me shiver? "Morbidly". That's not a nice word.

Back to reasons:

I refuse to be the same size as my age. :-S
I don't want a premature death -- I like life, actually.
I don't want to get fatter and become immobile like some people are.
I want to be able to walk up stairs without getting short of breath.
I want to run and nothing jiggles. *giggles*
I want to wear cute clothes.
I want to not sweat and be gross.
People say I'm so beautiful, I want to be beautiful everywhere.

I probably could go on forever.

Main reason I want to do this??? I don't have a reason why I shouldn't.

I've been putting off being HEALTHY for far too long. Some of you --okay, most of you-- won't agree with some of my tactics, but do you agree with me being fat? No. I am not pushing this too far or going too fast. I know my limits. :-)

I took my first before picture today. I boxed off part of it and made it smokey -- you don't get to see the FULL photo for 12 weeks from tomorrow. ;-) BUT! I will post pics along the way and then in 12 weeks there will be a nice big huge post of before and after pics.

I'm going to make too big of a deal about this -- then I HAVE to lose the weight. Otherwise, not only am I a failure to myself, but I've also failed you and proved you RIGHT. I hate doing that. No more.

So here you go, peeps::: picture of me - TODAY. Have at it and rip it to shreds. I'd love to hear what you think, really. :-)


Yup, 284 lbs. Size 24, 50" waist. *gaaaa, hate that last part. I can deal with the rest, but that was the part that was severely hard to write.*

Highest I ever weighed was 290 in 2004.

Goal in 12 weeks?? Realistically, 220. That's 64 lbs. By tomorrow morning I'll be 280 (I lose water weight/sodium weight really quickly.) so I think that 60 lbs in 12 weeks is very reasonable... do you?

Alright -- enough with the weight, let me catch you up on PHOTOS!!!


Jenn and I at Heather's wedding...

At the Casino...

Drinking at the casino! LOL It's what it's good for. LOL

I ADORE this photo of Bella. She was on my lap when Jenn took it, we were driving down to Wamego for the 4th. ;-) She's got such personality!

Jenn was holding Bella this time and I'm a good multitasker. :-) Drive and take pics. I love her lil tongue.

I pray to the snocone Gods.

Jenn and I at the carnivaaaal.

Jenn and I at the swimming pool on the 3rd... Jenn just went off the high dive. Which I have video of. ;-)

Jenn looking all Justified. LMAO!

Me in mah new swaaamsuit.

Nah, YOU a punk.

We did it pretty small this year since we only had one day to light shit off.

Even when we do it small, we do it BIG.

The whole neighborhood looked liked this!

Looking all cute with my new dress and purse going to Thriving Ivory. (Which was lame.)

Took this the other day, I adore it. It's a moment. :-)

Look at that tongue!! She's a hot dog.

Does that make up for all my missed Pics of da day? Hope so!

Comments are appreciated. I try and comment ALL of your blogs, but somehow I never get the same back.

xoxox

PSSST: I forgot to add -- 12 weeks from tomorrow is when we're leaving for Las Vegas. ;-)

AHHHH... full circle.