For the record - I am sober while I write this...
1 week sober actually.
Do I intend on staying that way forever? Possibly.
Probably not... I can guarantee that it's not my time to give up 'drugs' and alcohol, however, there will be a day that I will need to. I've seen that elephant in the room for a long time. A big huge, 1200 pounds elephant with a bright pink tutu on. I chose to ignore it.
http://www.videojug.com/interview/dr-drews-addiction-advice-3
Dr. Drew has been someone I have looked up to for the longest time. He seems like a cool dude who is in on pop culture and know's his shit. I used to sneak up and watch Loveline late at night in middle school. Honestly, I wanted to know about the sex stuff, but in reality he's an addiction specialist.
Annnd, if you watch that video above, he states that addiction is 60% hereditary. Meanwhile, BOTH of my parents are alcoholics and have problems with addiction. What does that mean in simple words?
I'm fucked.
My mom has been sober since like 2003, I believe...? Around then... Now, I'm not inside her head or anything, but she seemed to have more problems with it at the beginning of it than now... I'm sure it's still an everyday struggle.
If you're addicted to something, and you take that away, you get addicted to something else... that's what an addictive personality does... Now if I knew what I was addicted to the most, I could give it up... or try... or not.
Depression setting in...
To think that all this was really brought on by Twilight... something so happy... err...
xoxox
1 comment:
You are a strong person, you can do it! If you really want something... you can do it. But yeah its HARD :S
And this comes from somebody who is trying to give up chocolate for years :D
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