I'm Just A Little Bossy

"I like it how I like it, when I like it, and that's how it is..."

Last night Jennifer and I went over to Jasmine's and took my PA along so we could drink and karaoke. It was awesome blossom... Poppie was rapping to Lil Wayne, "that pussy in my mouth had me lost for words," "motherfucker I'm ill," -- keep in mind he's four.

Twas hilar.

Today was alright... I threw up this morning from being hungover, felt ill all day. Not good... but good things came in my mailbox! :-) Yesterday my friend sent me 2 copies of Justin on the cover of Fashion Rocks. ;-) Today I got Heath is The Four Feathers, which Jenn bought on eBay when I was in Ohio -- and I also got my Justin concert tickets!!!!! AHH!! 43 days!!



Yeah, yeah... we're sitting in BFE -- but Imma fucking be there, at least!!

Yesterday before we got trashed Jasmine got me a new hair dryer and straighter and 3 pairs of hair cutting scissors... she wants me to start my own business. She says I have talent with hair and that I should use my "hustle". LOL Now, I'm not full on running for the moon with this one, but it would be nice to make a little extra money on the side. I was just going to do her best friend Crystal's hair, but then Crystal's friend Stephanie wanted her hair trimmed and thinned.

This all happened after I totally made over Jennifer. I plucked and lightened her eyebrows and I did something new to her hair.

Here's Jenn's before:



That's actually from the fourth of July because it was the most recent photo I had of her... you can't see her roots in the photo, but trust me -- they're there!

After:




Here's Crystal before:



Crystal After:



So what do you think?!? I think I did pretty fucking spectacular.

Next subject:::

When Jenn and I went to see Batman last (my 7th time) during the credits I took pics of the screen. ;-) I loves me. Thought I should share.





That's what I always stay for. As soon as I see his name, I can go.

Tomorrow/Today (the 29th) I'm going to meet David Cook (again) down at the Sprint Center... wish me luck! I hope I don't fuck it up!! LOL We're doing it the next day too... I'll let you know how it goes. I have no idea what I'm wearing or anything. LOL

Jasmine's supposed to do my hair, but I'm not sure if that's still on or whatnot. LOL If she doesn't do it tomorrow she'll probably do it Saturday. Also, Saturday I'm getting my hair cut.

Pic of the Day:



"What the fuck do you want?"



"Um, halpp?"

xoxox

Chloe

The Truth Is

"Three hours from sundown
Jeremy flies
Hoping to keep
The sun from his eyes
East from the city
And down to the cave
In search of a master
In search of a slave"

I stole this idea from Gemma's blog. I admired it so much and she encouraged me to do one of my own.

Facts you may not have known about me:

-I was diagnosed with depression and ADHD when I was 12, the medicine I was given for ADHD gave me stomach ulcers, which I still fight today.
-Because of my ADHD, coffee/caffeine have the opposite effect on me and actually make me sleepy.
-I had no idea I had anxiety until I had a panic attack.
-I've had an eating disorder since I was a child, I don't want to recover any time soon.
-I have attempted suicide 3 times and I am sure I will again.
-I didn't know that I had curly hair until 2002.
-I only wash my hair every three days or so.
-My hair grows much faster than most peoples, which is irritating when I'm trying to be blond!
-I am slowly but surely becoming my mother and I can't stand it because she can't stand me. I once wished to be like my mother but now I want nothing less in this world than to be like her.
-I talk to myself, which I get from my Dad.
-My new "thing" is tea, which I drink like it's going out of style.
-After I got Bella I wondered if I was really ready for a dog, now I can't imagine my life without her.
-I "regret" two of my tattoos, I will never tell you which two.
-After I got my heart tattoo I regretted it and now it's one of my favorites and it's the most complimented that I have.
-I nearly got a tattoo dedicated to my mother, I was so proud of the special bond that we shared, I am happier now than ever that I never got that tattoo.
-I am getting a tattoo in memory of Heath.
-I am lactose intolerant.
-I'm highly allergic to cats, so much so that I almost died when I was in 7th grade while cat sitting.
-Changing my name from Jodie to Chloe was the hardest thing to do, but it felt very empowering.
-I don't have anything from my childhood, my Dad and step mom threw it all away, that's why I save everything now.
-I "regret" going to Las Vegas for Justin's club show. It was the stupidest thing we've ever done.
-I'm not good at keeping secrets, yet people still tell them to me!
-I am crippled by my sign and blame everything about myself on my Sagittarius.
-I believe that the one person I was destined for is already gone.
-I am absolutely terrified that I will never have children, and that I will only have dogs.
-I don't give forgiveness easily, yet I expect to get it back.
-I have cried at every Heath Ledger film, except the Dark Knight.
-I feel an undeniable connection with Heath, so much so that I often just want to be with him - no matter what.
-Heath is the only person I have ever felt was made for me. I have no words for what he means to me, so I can't explain it to you.
-I constantly push myself to the limit just to know how much I can really take.
-I didn't unpack from LA until I went to Ohio and I haven't unpacked from Ohio and probably won't until Vegas.

Alright, that's all I could think of for now. LOL

xoxox

Chloe

I Gotta Get Up, Figure This Shit Out

"I'm going home, gonna load my shotgun
wait by the door, light a cigarette
He wants a fight well now he's got one,
and he ain't seen me crazy yet..."

Eventually I'll take the time to put my heart out there and blog about the connections I really have with Heath Ledger. It's incredible and scares me to the bone.

I'm sipping green tea with peach and listening to the Shins. I had a really good, actually. Gemma and I talked for a long time and laughed a lot. It was like old times and it was perfect. We were both working on some fanfic and we connected on levels we haven't before and I was truly honest with her, no matter how crazy I sounded -- she still loved me. I love it. :-) Thanks Gem, for the wonderful day and for accepting me for who I am. I am blessed to have her. Really.

Jenn worked a triple today. She came home for like, an hour. LOL This girl is insane. She said after Vegas she's going down to four 10 hour days at one job and then still 5 days at the other. She's not getting enough sleep.

I've been doing freaking rockstar on eBay lately. It's awesome possum. ;-) I won a Heath poster, when I was in Ohio Jenn won the Four Feathers for like $3 -- I can beat that!!! I won the Brothers Grimm for 99c!!! I loveeeee that movie. I also won Edison for 99c... I'm bidding on tickets to the American Idols Saturday show for $1, ahh, there's more, but I don't want to bore you.

So... I'm changing my name. Not legally -- and not professionally because that would take too long. People know me as Jodie Platz, and I'm not going to disappoint there. Just personally. I won't get too deep here, but my mom said some things way back and every time that I hear my name I think of her, and well - since we aren't speaking I really don't want to think of her, so viola! I would go by Audrey again, but fuck, she named all of me. Here's the names I could potentially go by. I'm hoping to decide and make an announcement tomorrow.

Alexandra
Alexis
Avery
Chloe
Danica/Danika
Elle
Hayden
Kat
Madison
Olivia
Sophia
Victoria

Jenn's pulling for Elle -- I would say what I'm pulling for but I don't wanna say... which one do you think and why?

xoxox

Pic o' tha Day:



He really is my everything. I wake up in the morning and he's the first thought in my head, I lay my head down and he's the last thought I think before I sleep and then, he's in my dreams. Perfect doesn't describe him.

EDIT:::

I narrowed it down some more...

Avery
Chloe
Elle
Hayden
Olivia
Victoria

Alright, Jo, Just Do It!

"You be damned to be one of us, girl,
Faced with the dodo’s conundrum
I felt like I could just fly
But nothing happened every time I tried"

Alright, so when I went to Ohio to see Rae when I first got there she had made me a sign that said "welcome Jodie" which I freaking loved... it was so sweet. When I saw her I hugged her for like an hour and I told her i didn't want to let go. Rachel gives fantastic hugs. ;-) We went back to her place in her sweet car, which I stole [in my mind] and is now at my house... ;-) When we got there I met her mom, who is fantastic and we dropped off my things and went and had a picnic!!! I hadn't had a picnic since I was like 4, so this was totally awesome. We had a great time laughing and it was a really nice day.

Then we walked this thing called the mound where you can see like, ALL of Miamisburg. It was my goal to take a trillion photos and I didn't even take enough. We took some pics of us looking supafly on top of the mound... which just made me wanna lose weight because that thing was freaking like a thousand stairs.

Later in the day her parents took us to O'Charley's and then for a drive... of couse Rachel is still making fun of me because I fell asleep while her dad was taking us for a drive. LOL I didn't sleep at all the night before, so ya. I still feel bad. Her dad is cool beans tho. I love him. She has the greatest family ever.

That night we went to Starbucks to talk about plans for our lil hotel party the next night. ;-) Also I met Kayla, who has been Rae's BFF since they were 3. I love it. Also, later on we went airhorning, which was the funneset thing since ever. Fantastic. XD

That night I didn't want to go to bed, but I was exhausted. I just wanted to stay up all night with Rachel. Before bed each night we watched Nick at Night, which seemed to be a little bit of a tradition that I brought back with me. :-)

Thursday Rae and I went shopping, which was awesome. I got Bella treats she didn't eat and Rachel got her a cute lil pink dog toy. :-) We went to the book store and had a blast talking about books and reading half way through one of em. We got matching friendship rings, which by Friday both of ours had broken, but they still rock. LOL Also on Friday I met her Nana, who was really nice and talked a lot about her family. It was nice. :-)

Rachel was awesome to me and straightened my hair, which ended up looking sexier than evar and we had a hotel party thing with Kayla. It was the mostest fun I've evar had evar. That's all I'll say about that. ;-)

Friday we kinda took it easy after Thursday. LOL I met Rae's Grandma and Grandpa and 2 of her Aunts, and all her family was just so nice and warm... I was nervous at first because new people give me anxiety, but they were super cool. We played Go Fish with Judy and we had strawberries and s'mores. Later in the day we went to Ron's which is a local place and it kicked ass... It was so much fun to have this big dinner with her family. We ordered fried pickles, which I adore and I didn't know Rae liked and so I told her about how David Cook went to Southern Hospitality and got fried pickles and she freaked, it was the most adorable thing ever. haha! I got the eggplant parm which was very rich and very good. That night Winston, Rae's cat, laid on my butt. LOL

Saturday we went to Dave and Busters which was freaking awesome!! I had a BLAST!! We got a shit load of tickets and both got a shot glass and a glass. (Which, Rae, btw, my other shot glass that I got here? It actually does say Kansas City on it. LOL) We raced cars, we raced cars against each other and Rachel won... we played air hockey and I won, we both played Deal or No Deal and won a shit ton of tickets. It was awesome blossom.

Saturday night we went airhorning with Ashley, Rae's friend she had since 3rd grade. I liked Ashley, she was cool and care free. :-) Saturday we also went to Starbucks again and we got a little deep this time... and we also talked about moving to LA and looked up apartments and whatnot. I don't know if Rachel and I will end up ACTUALLY living TOGETHER in LA, but Jenn and I are moving to LA and Rachel's moving to LA -- so we'll at least be in the same city!!! We can still see each other like, everyday or every other day. I can't wait.

Sunday was my leaving day... I saw her Gma and Gpa again and we went to Skyline, a chili place that puts like a pound of cheese on your food. Jenn wants to go. LOL Sunday I had to freaking leave. It was awful. I hated it. Don't wanna think about it. Nope.

So there ya have it!! Thanks to Rae I remembered it all!! LOL Rae, I still need pics from D&B and Kayla's from the hotel. ;-) Please.

Of course now I don't wanna post the photos... I'll do that later. LOL

Here's some new HL... didn't make these either, but I'm gonna make some new ones soon.








That's not even all of them. LOL

I'll make some today and post what I make. Which 3 do you like?

xoxox

I Was Built Ford Tough

"Cuz bitch I'm the bomb like - tick, tick..."

Have you ever noticed how Family Guy is the quickest half hour of your life?! Jesus, I just turned this show on and it's over!? WTF?

Still no Rachel blog. LOL I seriously can't remember what all we did on what days, so I think Imma have to email Rachel about it... I reckon I could do photos, but ehh... too lazy... wanted to blog but I didn't want the whole Ohio thing to hold me up. LOL RACHEL: please email me with what all we did what days. LOL You know my retarded ADD. Fuck.

So... this morning I woke up because I heard Jasmine outside Jenn's door saying something something "let Bella out" and then "hi, Bella!" and that instantly woke me up... and pissed me the fuck off... Let's just not FUCK with my dog like I told you not to, ehh?? Jesus Fucking Christ. I am so fucka/lskfajdglakdja;slrkawsa;1~!!!!!!!!!!! I don't wanna say.

Tonight I'm making pasta for Jennifer. I love, love, love making her food and we usually make Italian.

Tomorrow morning the tickets for Justin's -- as they like to keep pushing in my face -- *ONLY* show this year. It's on Rachel's bday. LOL Which also happens to be Chris' birthday, for those who don't keep up. LOL Anyhow, we're just getting shitty seats, the Vegas trip is only 51 days away and it's already expensive enough. Better to be there than to be sitting in some lame ass town in the mid-west where Justin isn't. ;-) *wink, wink.* haha.

Also tomorrow Jenn's going to the doctor... I'm not sure if she wants me to tell you what's wrong, so I'll keep my trap shut until we know for 100%. Nothing that's completely unexpected or something we can't fix, though.

My Myspace has been ballin' the past couple weeks... don't know why, but ya.

Um... pics!

I DIDN'T make these... found them and loved them:::







I love Heath.

xoxox