Seven Nation Army

Yeah yeah yeah... I know, I've been MIA for a minute.

*shrugs* No one comments me anymore, so I guess I feel like everyone kinda forgot about my blog...

I've been hanging out a lot over at Twitter...

www.twitter.com/hello_jodie

It's badass, my Tweets are the best and you should come join the party.

I talk a lot to the Twitter Cullens. -- fastly becoming their new BFF. :D Loves it.

Got extensions today... Looks super badass witht he black hair and stuff. *happy*

Been making bracelets for my Twilight party as favors. They're badass.

Ooh, heartburn just struck me.

Fuck off.

Forgot what else I was gonna say - distracted by Robert. Oh wells. Peace.

Comments mean more posts.

...Or not.

Boredom Has Brought Me Here

"Seen the arrow on the dark post, Saying this land is condemned, All the way from New Orleans, to Jerusalem, I've traveled through east Texas, Where many martyrs fled, And I know no one can sing the blues Like Blind Willie McTell..."

I dyed my hair black, if ya didn't get that note.

LOL

I finally just up and did it... Well I guess it wasn't too impulsive, I had really planned to do it for about 2 weeks. This week I'm getting extensions and some color streaks. :) [Hopefully.]

I've been obsessed with the Twitter Cullens lately. LOL www.twittercullens.com They're super nice and I've been getting to know them and stuff... Talking to them is fun! Just last night I had a party with them and I was playing DJ while Jasper was out... and I raced Jacob in Jello shots and guess what?! I WON! WOO! I kicked the werewolfs ass!!!! OW OWW!! They're all really nice and fun to talk to.

I bet I sound absolutely ridiculous crazy right now, but whatevs. ;) It's fun.

Speaking of Twilight -- guess that's what this post is gonna chalk it up to be about... I'm watching Twilight with Gemma right now, and I've totally turned her into a Twilight fan! :) She loves the movie!!!! YAY!!!

I am so happy. I can't wait for her to read the books and watch the movie over again!!

Pic of the Day:



How bloody fantastic is that photo?!?! It made my LIFE.

xoxox

Letters I Want To Write But Don't

"I guess I'm dreaming again,
Let's be more than... this."

Dear McDonalds,

Why must your french fries taste so incredible yet be so horrible for me? Please try and keep me away from them for here on out. Thanks.

Dear 13 year-old-self,

I would say quit while you're ahead, but you're already pretty behind. Life will not get easier from where I'm standing, so you're in for at least another decade of hell. I'm truly sorry for all that you will endure. The tearful nights, the points and stares. The euphoric highs and the crippling lows. The habits that you're just starting to form now will never go away, so learn to love your new best friend.

Dear Jennifer,

Why can't you keep a promise? It would be nice to believe you when you say you're going to do something... I do believe you, but you keep failing me.

Dear person with the accusing eyes,

You don't know me, so please don't judge me. You have no idea what it feels like to walk in my shoes and you most definitely have not walked where I have walked. You should count yourself lucky for your picket fences and 'perfect' family - you would pry your eyes out if you had seen the things I have seen.

Dear friends,

You have no idea what your devotion to me means. I've searched the world over to find an eclectic mix of wonderful souls and I feel blessed to count you as the best. I would do anything to prove my love for you.

Dear enemies,

Karma comes full circle and you get what you put out there times three. Before you ever point fingers at me--or anyone, make sure your hands are clean.

Dear Stephenie Meyer,

Thanks for getting me to finally read!!! I never thought the day would come when I would be so entirely invested in two characters the way I am with Edward and Bella. I love them with my entire soul and I will never be able to thank you enough for the gift you have given me.

Dear Mama,

I don't blame you, so stop blaming yourself.

Dear Daddy,

I'm so very sorry for the way that I turned out. You'll never have any idea of how sorry one person can be. I'll never forgive myself for as long as I live for all the things I've done to you and how many ways I've let you down. I will never ask for your forgiveness because I don't think I will ever deserve it.

Dear Self,

One day I hope you can fly. I know you're going to fall many times before that day comes but someday you will soar. Please stop hurting yourself when you're ready. Please try and value the things on the inside because you still believe in good -- good in people, forgiveness and karma. You know you're stupid for believing that; you know you're naive. I don't blame you for it. It's just the way you'll always be. You're always going to be Cinderella in your own fairy tale, it's just a distorted, sordid version of whatever truth you may portray that day.

Dear Child,

Thank you for shouting out loud, now you may do whatever you please. You may live in the kingdom or ride in the carriage.

Love,

Jodie

The last was something I wrote in grade school - 2nd grade or so... I impressed myself with it. It's a wonderful thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself.

Hook Me Up

"I'm tired of my life,
I feel so inbetween,
I'm sick of all my friends,
Girls can be so mean,
I feel like throwing out,
Everything I wear,
Starting over new,
Cuz I'm not even there..."

I was having a spectacular day... and then stupid PayPal and the bank happened. *RAWR*

I was trying to get this stupid PayPal acct all set up, verified, premiere acct, etc... so it was like, "fill in this stuff..." so I did... then I clicked send without reading the tiny print - stupid me. It said, "we're gonna charge you $1.95 to verify your credit card" so I tried to stop it real quick... didn't work... so then I was like, "well, that blows, but I had like $2.33 in my acct, so oh well." (Pay day is tomorrow.) So I go online to check my statement and it took out $2.95, not $1.95... so now I'm overdrawn freaking 0.62c. WTF? Now I'm freaking scared shitless I'm going to get charged like $30 for fucking 62c!

Laaaa...

Why did I get a bank account?

I hate bank accounts... For the longest time people were like, "how do you not have a bank account?" and I'm like, "because everywhere takes cash..." my fucking mattress doesn't charge me to keep my cash under the bed, so why the hell did I get a bank account?

god, I'm ridiculous.

My day was going perfect... oh well, I guess this is a minimal thing to worry about, it's just frustrating/worrying me.

On to better things...

I've lost 7 pounds this week! Yay me... I'm not going to bore you with my weight loss details on this blog anymore... I have a different bloggage for that... on xanga... but you'll never find me! Unless you hack into my computer or my mind, there's no way you'll find me, good luck though! ;)

Tomorrow I'm getting a new cell phone... here's what happened. *anxious laugh* So Jenn stopped paying the VZW bill, right? Stripping me of my BlackBerry, which was my life support... so then I got this RE_TARD_ED Virgin Mobile phone -- Jenn's idea -- I don't know how anyone could live with those. They are the stupidist, most insignificant phones I've ever touched. To go from a fucking BlackBerry to that is literally insulting. I'm insulted...

So I had that for a hot second, but it costs .20c to send a receive texts and 0.20c a minute to talk on the phone... which, I only spoke on the phone a few times, it was hard to hear and hard for people to hear me on it... Like, what's the bloody point?!

So money went quick on that phone... was usually out the day after I loaded it on there... One day I get so fucking pissed at Jenn/Virgin Mobile/my situation/THE WORLD that I literally took the phone, flipped it open and broke it in two pieces with my hands... I've had granola bars that were harder than that...

Jenn wasn't happy... *evil laugh* Oh well! What's done is done! Although, I did lose a couple numbers. LOL

So tomorrow I'm getting a Boost Mobile phone. $50 for unlimited everything... can't go wrong there. :) Eventually I'll get enough money to get myself a VZW account on my own... if I feel I would really like that BlackBerry back... but I have a feeling I'll be pleased with Boost. :)

Tomorrow Jenn and I are going to go see a couple movies too. :) Sunshine Cleaning and Fast and Furious... :) I can't wait!

Pic of thaaa Day:

I got these a few days ago... Dossier Mag with RPattz... which photo is my favorite? Um... All of them, thanks. ^_^

xoxox

Assisted [LOVE] Suicide

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La La Bamba

I've got heartburn.

I'm watching Cruel Intentions... again... for the 2nd time today.

I made a xanga... LOL Re-made for the umpteenth time... no, I won't give you the link.

I'm going to eat a hundred Taco Bell burritos tonight, and not eat tomorrow.

I'm giving up fast food... again... fuck, let's just give up food.

I made my Mama watch Twilight yesterday.

I got some pics from my Mama from 2002... I was "thin" then... Thinner than now.

I got a home waxing kit thingy from my Mama yesterday. It's like a spa thing but for home. We're not talking shitty strips here, it's a vat of hot wax. Killer.

I got some new clothes yesterday...

I'm the fattest girl on the planet.

I got $45 worth of hair product yesterday.

I want to dye my hair...

I don't know what color.

I need a bath.

I want to know where all my time went.

I am crushing hard on a boy... that's all I can say about that.

I need to step back and re-evaluate my life and make decisions that are best for my future.

xoxox

Edit: I've made an executive decision to not go to TwiCon... I'll opt for a something something else Twilight in August of '10. (If you already know what it is, then lucky you. If not, shhhh...)

Hands Clean

Cache, cookies and history deleted.

*wipes hands clean*

No turning back. I'm done.

I feel better... Now the only obsession that will exist between the two of us is all on you.

(god, I love cryptic messages. *smirk*)

xoxox

Be Careful What You Wish For

"...you can talk about me, cuz I'm a hot topic.."

Insanely weird, awesome, random day yesterday.

Let me start from the beginning.

Yesterday I had an interview with a new coffee company here in Kansas City called Savvy, they're opening right across the street from a Starbucks downtown. Bold. Ballsy. I like it.

The interview went well, not sure if I'll get the job however. The manager said that the other people he had interviewed had more barista experience, but he liked my resume and wanted to meet with me because I had such an eclectic mix of things on it. That's an interesting way of looking at things! I really liked him and the owner...

So after that we went down to the Power and Light District to try and win Britney Spears tickets from Mix 93.3

They had a contest where you had to go into a ball pit, filled with balls and balloons and grab a ball with a 'B' on it and be out of the ball pit in 9 seconds or less... the catch? Blindfolded.

Gaaaah, seriously, that seems HARD, dudes. (Then again, if it was easy it would have been for some C-list band, not BRITNEY SPEARS.)

So I signed up to do it, just as a backup if Jennifer didn't win... I really didn't want to do it. So it's about half and half on people who are winning, obviously more people are losing the farther down the line it gets and we were almost at the half way mark, but closer to the front of the line. So this lady, I'm sorry... this ANNOYING lady who had been in front of us got into the ball pit, got a ball with a 'B' on it, and didn't get out in 9 seconds, so she didn't win the tickets... I'm like, MAN, this really is hard. :(

Jenn goes into the ball pit and it all just went so fast... she didn't get tickets... so then it's my turn. Ugh, I'm this big fat girl getting into a fucking BALL PIT for Britney Spears tickets... what the fuck is wrong with me? I'm retarded, I'm not going to win this, so why the fuck am I doing this?! God, I'm stupid...

So I get the low down on the rules, I get into the ball pit and put on my blindfold and then Jenn's all screaming at me, "over here, over here! there's one over here..." I'm picking up tons of random balls and then she's like "a little further, this blue one!" and I'm wanting to scream at her "I'm wearing a blindfold, colors don't help me here!!!!!!!" So finally I reach a little further and touch a ball and she's like, "THAT ONE!" I grab it, meanwhile -- I'm 5'8 and my foot was outside the pit the whole freaking time... LOL No worries on not getting out of the pit. LOL

So, in 9 seconds... blindfolded... I found a 'B' on a ball in a freaking ball pit and got Britney tickets.

This is a moment my mom likes to call "Jupiter in the twelfth house". When I was born, Jupiter was in the twelfth house which makes me exceptionally lucky by nature... I'm going to call her today and tell her what happened and the first thing she's going to say to me is "Jupiter in the twelfth house". Bet on it. ;)

So they hand me my tickets and Jenn and I are SUPER excited and the intern/street team guy from Mix is like, "can I take your picture?" and we're like, 'sure thing'... then all the sudden Swank, a morning show guy on Mix 93.3 says, "Oh, my god, are you Jodie Platz?!" and I was like "...yeah?" he goes, "we love your youtube videos!!!!!!!" and then he rambled off a bunch of different things from different vlogs of mine. (Mind you, I haven't vlogged since MAY 08.) Then he goes, "are you Jennifer?! She pushed you into the pool!" I'm bustin up laughing and he turns to me and says, "Oh, my god! I have to get my picture with you! You're like, famous!"

Meanwhile, I'm completely mortified... It's ironic and just goes to show the randomness of my life - I stop trying to make it and I get recognized. What the fuck?

As we're walking across the street I am replaying everything he said to me in my head and they were all pretty much backhanded compliments... (He was stoked to meet me, though. LOL!) I expressed my irritation at Jennifer to which she said, "would you be mad if Perez said something mean about you? All press is good press..." And I guess, I handled it like any other 'celeb' would. I was nice and polite and took a picture with him, to which, everyone was staring at me.

Like I said... mortified.

So finally we get inside the Sprint Center and get to our seats... they were pretty freaking great for free tickets if you ask me... you can see my pictures on my facebook and myspace when I get around to loading them up today... I'm currently loading my videos to youtube... so if you're not on my social networks, you can just check out my videos.

My review of the Britney Spears Kansas City Circus show...

Pussycat Dolls opened. I adore Kimberly. She's super awesome and hot... annnnnd, from Missouri! ^_^

Something weird happened with PCD though... when they started, there were 5 of them... and then after the first song, Melody disappeared. Maybe she was sick? Got hurt? I don't know, but it was weird... they didn't mention it, just continued on like it was nothing... heh.

They were great... twas the 2nd time I had seen them live. I loveeeer them. They sing live and dance their asses off. Sweet...

She had these circus performers that came on after PCD, but before she did and they were absolutely marvelous... better than most of the show if you ask me. These people are absolutely talented... there was a gymnast who did flips on a moving balance beam. I taped that, so check out the ol' youtube.

Britney was on for an hour and half... that's 30 mins more than the last time I had seen Britney with Jennifer... LOL Lip-synched the whole time... we knew this... barely danced. I was very disappointed in that. Called it "Kansas" two out of three times... only spoke three times. Rushed through all her songs...

Basically... when your opening act is better than you are... you have a problem. I just wish she TRIED... She kinda got spun around by all her dancers and mimicked the movements... Twas weird...

She had too many dancers... too much going on, there were times that she got lost in the chaos...

And now, the part that I'm obligated to mention. I am not sure if I mentioned it here on my blog, but I have mentioned it to my friends... her stage... Her stage was a direct page torn from the book of Justin Timberlake.

When her tickets first went on sale and I saw her stage set up I thought, "holy lord, this is exactly like Justin's." But being there in the presence of the stage moreso proved my original thought. Does it make you look good when you copy ANYTHING anyone does? Let alone Justin... especially when you're Britney... Just saying...

Three stages, chairs directly by the stage, VIP behind that... general admission behind that... moving screen/curtain... text before the show... collectors cups. If you've been to a Timberlake FSLShow then you know what I'm talking about.

Here's a pic I took last night of Britney's stage and here's a picture of Justin's stage:
(Click to enlarge -- SUPER HQ, I haven't had time to resize.)

(the other ring is on the other side of the PCD curtain.)



Jenn and I were happy we knew all the songs, though. I have her albums, but I hadn't gotten around to caring about all the songs on her latest album, so I kinda just picked and chose my favorites... same thing happened with PCD... luckily, I guess I picked all the right ones because they were the ones performed.

One great thing I have to say about the Britney show was the the lighting and the sound were superb. The lighting especially... absolutely incredible. Muchos props.

Oooh... a commercial for lasagna. Yes, please.

Hope y'all are well... thanks for reading about my randomness. :)

xoxox

Jodie Platz

PS - one more thing... how many more things do I have to start before I get to claim something as my own? Lyrics of the day? Check. Picture of the day? Check. Icon of the day? Check. I guess I still have playlist of the day to myself, but that takes so much time and energy and I feel that no one appreciated it.

No One's Gonna Take Me Alive

"I only dream of you and you never knew, Sing for absolution, I will be singing and falling from your grace..."

I have VERY big news:::

I guess this is as good a time as any to let you all know that I'm pregnant... Yesssss, very sudden, abrupt news...

I've decided to keep the baby. I once had thought to myself that if I got pregnant without being married that I would get an abortion... err, well, I guess not so much if I got pregnant without being married, but depending on who's baby it was... but times change and I grew older and so now I've decided that I'm 24 and I'm a big girl... I can take care of a baby. I've always wanted a baby. It's not that different from taking care of a Chihuahua, right?

Err... well... maybe a little bit.

I'm 4 months along now... I guess you're probably wondering whose baby it is... yaaa, I'm not ready to tell you that. Give me time... I hope it's a boy.

Click here to see a picture of the bebeh in my tummeh!

On to better things! (Well, not BETTER, but yaa... LOL)

I've been absent from blogger because I was busy writing a story/novel/book. It's the first story I've ever written that wasn't a fan fic... I guess it's sort of a fan fic because it does feature some Twilight characters, but it's not a story about Bella and Edward. It's the first story I've ever written about a brand new character since I was in creative writing in high school. Also, most of my fan fics have loads of sex, drugs and rock and roll in them, and this one has the word "shit" twice and that's as bad as it gets. There's a heavy make out session, but tis all. I'm pretty proud of myself for being able to tone it down.

Jenn read my story last night and completely loved it! More than she's liked any of my other stories before. Gemma is in the process of reading it now and if you would like to read it, let me know in a comment and if I don't already have your email, put your email in there too and I'll send it as a Word file. ;)

Jenn and I were watching Twilight the other night. (What else is new? It's actually the first time I've watched it all the way through since I got the DVD - besides the commentary, which took me three days to watch. Guess I have more of a life than I thought. Heh.) It's probably the 13th or so time that I've seen the movie and you know, each time I watch it I think of something new, or I see something different that I didn't see before. I've always been the person to look beyond the main characters to see what's going on behind them...

Anyhow, so now I think I've thought of everything and seen everything about the movie... Jenn and I were talking and making jokes about how Bella's mom is telling her what happened to her and why she's in the hospital --- anyone else notice that while Edward is sleeping he changes positions? Continuity error! --- Anyhow, we always make jokes about how it's really weird they're talking about her broken leg and all, but they don't notice the big bite mark on her freaking arm... anyhow, that's old news...

What I cannot believe I never noticed was... I was saying how Bella should have at least TOLD Jasper that she was going to meet James at the ballet studio, then he could have been prepared... these are smart and wise vampires, yanno? Anyhow, then I was like... WAIT. Why would Bella have to tell them anything? As soon as she made up her mind to go to the ballet studio to meet James, Alice should have seen that...

Big flaw.

Big.

Perhaps they addressed something like that in the book, it's been a while since I've read Twilight and to be honest I'm not sure where I placed it. I'm in the midst of re-reading New Moon and Jenn is re-reading Eclipse... I honestly think that New Moon was my favorite. ^_^ But we'll see after I re-read them all... it wasn't Twilight, that's for damn sure. I hated how Edward handled sucking the venom out of Bella in the book... it was better in the movie. It actually showed how hard it would have been for him....

Enough about Twilight.

Right now I'm listening to R. Carlos Nakai, Changes: Native American Flute Music. It's absolutely gorgeous... I got it from my mother. :)

So today marks the date that ten years ago I attended my first NSYNC concert. :) Ten years... TEN. Wow...

I still can't believe I've almost known Jennifer for ten years... not even just known her, but been her BEST FRIEND for ten years. That's pretty incredible... and I really can't believe it that I've been living with her for like 6 years... that's insaneeeeeeee in the membrane.

So I'm pretty devastated that Little Ashes isn't playing in Kansas City. I'll either have to go to St. Louis to see the film or pray that it does well in it's other viewing cities and that it opens nationwide at a later date...

I feel pretty horrible for Robert. I guess I can't judge the film until I see it, but the reason I feel horrible for him is because he clearly doesn't want it to be released. Everything he's said about it... well I, for one, am looking forward to seeing the film... Not just because of him. I have read on several fan sites that they're only going to see it because of RPattz and that it looks "disturbing". Well, of course it's going to be "disturbing". Do you know anything about Salvador Dali?

Rob says he took the role because he was sure that he was never going to work again and now he feels it's only getting released because of his Twilight fame... Sure, sure, I'm sure that's right, but couldn't he at least stand behind his work? If it's shit, I'll tell you it's shit... but from all the clips and trailers I've seen, it looks really good and interesting.

My favorite Dali paintings... it's hard to pick three, but I managed after ten minutes. LOL


The Persistence of Memory



The Burning Giraffe


Swans Reflecting Elephants

I particularly love the last one. There's even a self portrait of Dali on the left. ;)

I reckon that's all for today. I'll try and keep up better with this blog thing. ^_^

Playlist, yes, its been a while. Enjoy some Muse!

xoxox