Seven Nation Army

Yeah yeah yeah... I know, I've been MIA for a minute.

*shrugs* No one comments me anymore, so I guess I feel like everyone kinda forgot about my blog...

I've been hanging out a lot over at Twitter...

www.twitter.com/hello_jodie

It's badass, my Tweets are the best and you should come join the party.

I talk a lot to the Twitter Cullens. -- fastly becoming their new BFF. :D Loves it.

Got extensions today... Looks super badass witht he black hair and stuff. *happy*

Been making bracelets for my Twilight party as favors. They're badass.

Ooh, heartburn just struck me.

Fuck off.

Forgot what else I was gonna say - distracted by Robert. Oh wells. Peace.

Comments mean more posts.

...Or not.

Boredom Has Brought Me Here

"Seen the arrow on the dark post, Saying this land is condemned, All the way from New Orleans, to Jerusalem, I've traveled through east Texas, Where many martyrs fled, And I know no one can sing the blues Like Blind Willie McTell..."

I dyed my hair black, if ya didn't get that note.

LOL

I finally just up and did it... Well I guess it wasn't too impulsive, I had really planned to do it for about 2 weeks. This week I'm getting extensions and some color streaks. :) [Hopefully.]

I've been obsessed with the Twitter Cullens lately. LOL www.twittercullens.com They're super nice and I've been getting to know them and stuff... Talking to them is fun! Just last night I had a party with them and I was playing DJ while Jasper was out... and I raced Jacob in Jello shots and guess what?! I WON! WOO! I kicked the werewolfs ass!!!! OW OWW!! They're all really nice and fun to talk to.

I bet I sound absolutely ridiculous crazy right now, but whatevs. ;) It's fun.

Speaking of Twilight -- guess that's what this post is gonna chalk it up to be about... I'm watching Twilight with Gemma right now, and I've totally turned her into a Twilight fan! :) She loves the movie!!!! YAY!!!

I am so happy. I can't wait for her to read the books and watch the movie over again!!

Pic of the Day:



How bloody fantastic is that photo?!?! It made my LIFE.

xoxox

Letters I Want To Write But Don't

"I guess I'm dreaming again,
Let's be more than... this."

Dear McDonalds,

Why must your french fries taste so incredible yet be so horrible for me? Please try and keep me away from them for here on out. Thanks.

Dear 13 year-old-self,

I would say quit while you're ahead, but you're already pretty behind. Life will not get easier from where I'm standing, so you're in for at least another decade of hell. I'm truly sorry for all that you will endure. The tearful nights, the points and stares. The euphoric highs and the crippling lows. The habits that you're just starting to form now will never go away, so learn to love your new best friend.

Dear Jennifer,

Why can't you keep a promise? It would be nice to believe you when you say you're going to do something... I do believe you, but you keep failing me.

Dear person with the accusing eyes,

You don't know me, so please don't judge me. You have no idea what it feels like to walk in my shoes and you most definitely have not walked where I have walked. You should count yourself lucky for your picket fences and 'perfect' family - you would pry your eyes out if you had seen the things I have seen.

Dear friends,

You have no idea what your devotion to me means. I've searched the world over to find an eclectic mix of wonderful souls and I feel blessed to count you as the best. I would do anything to prove my love for you.

Dear enemies,

Karma comes full circle and you get what you put out there times three. Before you ever point fingers at me--or anyone, make sure your hands are clean.

Dear Stephenie Meyer,

Thanks for getting me to finally read!!! I never thought the day would come when I would be so entirely invested in two characters the way I am with Edward and Bella. I love them with my entire soul and I will never be able to thank you enough for the gift you have given me.

Dear Mama,

I don't blame you, so stop blaming yourself.

Dear Daddy,

I'm so very sorry for the way that I turned out. You'll never have any idea of how sorry one person can be. I'll never forgive myself for as long as I live for all the things I've done to you and how many ways I've let you down. I will never ask for your forgiveness because I don't think I will ever deserve it.

Dear Self,

One day I hope you can fly. I know you're going to fall many times before that day comes but someday you will soar. Please stop hurting yourself when you're ready. Please try and value the things on the inside because you still believe in good -- good in people, forgiveness and karma. You know you're stupid for believing that; you know you're naive. I don't blame you for it. It's just the way you'll always be. You're always going to be Cinderella in your own fairy tale, it's just a distorted, sordid version of whatever truth you may portray that day.

Dear Child,

Thank you for shouting out loud, now you may do whatever you please. You may live in the kingdom or ride in the carriage.

Love,

Jodie

The last was something I wrote in grade school - 2nd grade or so... I impressed myself with it. It's a wonderful thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself.

Hook Me Up

"I'm tired of my life,
I feel so inbetween,
I'm sick of all my friends,
Girls can be so mean,
I feel like throwing out,
Everything I wear,
Starting over new,
Cuz I'm not even there..."

I was having a spectacular day... and then stupid PayPal and the bank happened. *RAWR*

I was trying to get this stupid PayPal acct all set up, verified, premiere acct, etc... so it was like, "fill in this stuff..." so I did... then I clicked send without reading the tiny print - stupid me. It said, "we're gonna charge you $1.95 to verify your credit card" so I tried to stop it real quick... didn't work... so then I was like, "well, that blows, but I had like $2.33 in my acct, so oh well." (Pay day is tomorrow.) So I go online to check my statement and it took out $2.95, not $1.95... so now I'm overdrawn freaking 0.62c. WTF? Now I'm freaking scared shitless I'm going to get charged like $30 for fucking 62c!

Laaaa...

Why did I get a bank account?

I hate bank accounts... For the longest time people were like, "how do you not have a bank account?" and I'm like, "because everywhere takes cash..." my fucking mattress doesn't charge me to keep my cash under the bed, so why the hell did I get a bank account?

god, I'm ridiculous.

My day was going perfect... oh well, I guess this is a minimal thing to worry about, it's just frustrating/worrying me.

On to better things...

I've lost 7 pounds this week! Yay me... I'm not going to bore you with my weight loss details on this blog anymore... I have a different bloggage for that... on xanga... but you'll never find me! Unless you hack into my computer or my mind, there's no way you'll find me, good luck though! ;)

Tomorrow I'm getting a new cell phone... here's what happened. *anxious laugh* So Jenn stopped paying the VZW bill, right? Stripping me of my BlackBerry, which was my life support... so then I got this RE_TARD_ED Virgin Mobile phone -- Jenn's idea -- I don't know how anyone could live with those. They are the stupidist, most insignificant phones I've ever touched. To go from a fucking BlackBerry to that is literally insulting. I'm insulted...

So I had that for a hot second, but it costs .20c to send a receive texts and 0.20c a minute to talk on the phone... which, I only spoke on the phone a few times, it was hard to hear and hard for people to hear me on it... Like, what's the bloody point?!

So money went quick on that phone... was usually out the day after I loaded it on there... One day I get so fucking pissed at Jenn/Virgin Mobile/my situation/THE WORLD that I literally took the phone, flipped it open and broke it in two pieces with my hands... I've had granola bars that were harder than that...

Jenn wasn't happy... *evil laugh* Oh well! What's done is done! Although, I did lose a couple numbers. LOL

So tomorrow I'm getting a Boost Mobile phone. $50 for unlimited everything... can't go wrong there. :) Eventually I'll get enough money to get myself a VZW account on my own... if I feel I would really like that BlackBerry back... but I have a feeling I'll be pleased with Boost. :)

Tomorrow Jenn and I are going to go see a couple movies too. :) Sunshine Cleaning and Fast and Furious... :) I can't wait!

Pic of thaaa Day:

I got these a few days ago... Dossier Mag with RPattz... which photo is my favorite? Um... All of them, thanks. ^_^

xoxox

Assisted [LOVE] Suicide

L

O

V

E

La La Bamba

I've got heartburn.

I'm watching Cruel Intentions... again... for the 2nd time today.

I made a xanga... LOL Re-made for the umpteenth time... no, I won't give you the link.

I'm going to eat a hundred Taco Bell burritos tonight, and not eat tomorrow.

I'm giving up fast food... again... fuck, let's just give up food.

I made my Mama watch Twilight yesterday.

I got some pics from my Mama from 2002... I was "thin" then... Thinner than now.

I got a home waxing kit thingy from my Mama yesterday. It's like a spa thing but for home. We're not talking shitty strips here, it's a vat of hot wax. Killer.

I got some new clothes yesterday...

I'm the fattest girl on the planet.

I got $45 worth of hair product yesterday.

I want to dye my hair...

I don't know what color.

I need a bath.

I want to know where all my time went.

I am crushing hard on a boy... that's all I can say about that.

I need to step back and re-evaluate my life and make decisions that are best for my future.

xoxox

Edit: I've made an executive decision to not go to TwiCon... I'll opt for a something something else Twilight in August of '10. (If you already know what it is, then lucky you. If not, shhhh...)

Hands Clean

Cache, cookies and history deleted.

*wipes hands clean*

No turning back. I'm done.

I feel better... Now the only obsession that will exist between the two of us is all on you.

(god, I love cryptic messages. *smirk*)

xoxox