Friends

The deep blue sea you left me in turned purple,
That should have been the clue that it's not easy to walk away,
If you could be my friend you wouldn't leave me for my benefit,
Because you'd know leaving would kill me in the first place,
I don't want you to stay and rob you of your freedom, however,
Now isn't the time for searching,
It's the time for love, the time for friends,
And the time to make use of time

Actor

I live my life like an actor,
I make the world my stage,
I put on a show everyday,
To say what I need to say,
I can play any role that
you want me to portray,
I've been the daughter,
Been the house wife,
The curtain still falls the same,
I play the liar everyday,
and some days I play the fool,
But the only role I didn't get
was to be in love with you,
That part was taken, I'm afraid,
And there's no way I'll be the understudy,
Cuz if I'm going to be your lover,
you're going to love me already,
So I've played with black magic,
and I've played a princess,
I've been alive and I've been the victim,
I couldn't tell you where all my parts went,
But I'm still waiting to kiss you

Ketchup

I mades that ^^.
"baby, take a seat, eyes on me, this is my show, your one and only pleasure all decked in lace and leather, fantasy courtesy of me, baby let's go..."

First off - I want to talk about Spencer Bell. <-- Click his name to view his site. Spencer was many things... poet, musician, artist, son and friend. Unfortunately in December of 2006 he was taken from us because of adrenal cancer. The Spencer Bell memorial page (Linked on his name up there. Click it when I'm done talking.) is dedicated to preserving his art and sharing it with the world. I can tell you that Spencer has touched the very core of my soul. The first poetry I read from him was My Name. (Click to read the poem.) I have found a lot of myself in Spencer, and this is where I started. He's everything, as am I. He's many things that people might see as a contradiction, but really they're not if you take the time to learn the person.

This part is particularly me:
"Quite complicated for such a simple fellow, or perhaps just very simply complex."

When I read Plan B I immediately knew that Spencer and I had the same mind.

My favorite is It Wouldn't Be So Bad. It touched me so deeply that I have a tattoo planned around it. I shared it with Jennifer and she said that it was "fitting" for me.




It's a crappy cell phone photo, but it's just a concept... I don't want my own sketch of headphones, but I want them to look sketched out, along the cord I want it to say, "it wouldn't be so bad to die with my headphones on..."

Spencer also has a lot of music on his page... he has a wonderful style and I hope that you enjoy it as much as I do. My favorite songs of the moment are, "Certain", "Cleaning Up", "Tourist", "The Whole Damned Thing", "Friends", and "Beautiful, More So".

In transition with Spencer - my Genn has a website on which she daily posts about Spencer. Please check out her site and her "soap boxes" when you get a chance. She's so captivating and passionate with her words, there's no way that you'll regret it. Watch out for this girl because she's going to change the world. One person at a time, she's fucking determined. She's already changed my world...

Lastly today, I want to talk about Jackson Rathbone's crotch. Okay, okay... moreso, musicians and how performing gives them a hard on.

I don't blame them. I mean, I've been there... not the exact sense as the male performers, but I can most definitely relate. Performing is a very erotic experience... to be worshiped by a sea of people all hanging on every single note...

I have a ever growing (no pun intended) list of male musicians who get hard when they perform.
-Justin Timberlake
-the lead singer of Alien Ant Farm (my was that impressive from the front row!!)
-Jackson Rathbone

I have seen the first two in person, and I'm sure if I really thought about this and if it wasn't 430am I could come up with more to add to my list... but, who cares... you just want the proof right? Here's the pudding.

My god, he's so epic gorgeous. I think I will take him home... it's been a while since I brought home a stray. You don't mind, do you Genn? No no, I didn't think so.

Picture of the Day:


Keeping in theme with Jaxxx... this tis my new favorite photo of him... I titled it, "Jacks has a hat and my heart" that's the honest to god truth. I kinda would basically sell my soul to the devil to photograph him. He's so beautiful. In photographs you can see past him and into his thoughts, into his soul... course, that's not necessarily the case here, here I just really like this photo. :)

xoxox

Well I Just Skipped Over July, Didn't I?

"baby your love is built like a drug and I don't want to be sober..."

It's been a fucking long ass time, eh?!

Well, I've been without interwebs for a while, so that was a lot of it... course I've had the net back for a hot second now and I just haven't gotten around to updating... been spending online times with my LOVE.

Yep, still in love. Still head over heels... actually, when I wrote that post over a month ago I wasn't as in love as I am now. I just keep wondering when I'm going to peak, but it doesn't happen.

Enough about that... for now.

Do me a favor? Go to this site: http://www.weallshouldcare.com/ It's the fucking TRUTH, I tell you that!

Also... go here and learn about the beautiful Spencer Bell. His art will touch you deeper than you ever thought possible. Promise and swear.

I'm going to try and update more often now, sorry that I've been MIA, I'll fix that. :)

xoxox

Ooh, It's Been A While

"Pick a fruit, let me be your apple..."

So much has been going on... I've been so wrapped up in my personal life that I haven't even fathomed blogging.

I fell in love.

Never been in love before, but I've met the most incredible person on the planet. Words cannot express the kind of emotions that I feel. I literally weep thinking of them because I'm so sad that my heart isn't big enough to hold all that I feel.

The most amazing part about this?! They love me too...

They're my anti-depressant, my Xanax... I actually look forward to the morning each day. They are my sunlight. My entire existence is now because of them. My heart beats their name.

I haven't been motivated or inspired to do any music in a long while... about 13 months, and suddenly this week I got my ass into the studio and wrote a song for them. I've never written a song for anyone before, but they inspire me so much. My muse. ((No, you'll never hear it, it's for their ears only.))

'I love you' suddenly means so much more to me. I have never been a gushy/mushy person... I've always rolled my eyes at those people, but now I understand.

I'm never going to let them go. Ever. Life has new colors and music has new sounds.

Blaaah, I'm gonna make myself throw up with how sweet I'm being. I'm sorry... I can't help it.

I think I've rattled on enough for today, see you soon... maybe, if I can tear myself away.

xoxox

Happy Birthday, Edward!

For @MindMeddlerEd

Edward~

Happy birthday! I wanted to keep your gift simple, since you're one of those people who is hard to buy for...

First off, I wanted to start by thanking you for allowing me in your life - you're an amazing person whose company I greatly enjoy, and I'm very proud to call you my friend.

Now, onto the gifts!!

Your card -- CLICK HERE

A mixed tape of sorts... -- CLICK HERE

Something to drink... in case you already ran out of this -- CLICK HERE

And for tomorrow morning's hangover -- CLICK HERE

I love you very much, Edward. I hope you have a wonderful birthday, you know what they say... 108 is great!!! :)

xoxox

Jodie

Twilight Inspired Cocktails

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