TWO WEEKS FROM TODAY!

"I've acted out my life in stages,
With 8,121 people watching...
But we're alone now,
And I'm singing my song for you..."

Tina -- yesterday's song was off the Maroon album by Barenaked Ladies, it's called "Humor of the Situation". Great album, go download it.

So about the car situation, I have to drive Jennifer everywhere now for fear of her getting pulled over -- the other day in the mail she got 3 warrants for not showing to her court date -- which she has a lawyer for but apparently he didn't do his job very well -- if she gets pulled over it'll cost $2400 to get her out.

It'll be all taken care of tomorrow since this was his fault.

So... NKOTB is touring again -- I think they have successfully made the shittiest tour list evar.

Sat 9/20/08 Montreal, Quebec
Sun 9/21/08 Toronto, ON
Tue 9/23/08 East Rutherford, NJ
Wed 9/24/08 Uniondale, NY
Fri 9/26/08 Boston, MA
Sat 9/27/08 Atlantic City, NJ
Sat 10/4/08 Chicago, IL

I understand that they're old as fucking dirt, but c'mon!!! They're not even doing any West Coast dates! Not that I mind, I'm going to Chicago!

;-)

As the title states, two weeks from today I'm going to LA! I can't wait! I'm more than excited can be! I still have to get my lyrics in order and there's just tons I have to do before I go. Fortunately, I still have two weeks.

Pic of the Day:



Michael Buble and I, Heaven...

xoxox

Humor Of The Situation (15)

"When you walked in, I said with a grin,
That 'we were just talking about you',
We all had to lie, because you would cry,
If you knew were laughing at you..."

Sorry for the delay in my blogs... I didn't blog like I should have when I was in Omaha.

Omaha was great, it was really nice to see Tina and we got a great car. We got an 09 Mitsu------bishi(!) Galant and I loveeeeeed it. I want one.

We had a great time up there and got a bit tipsy... not drunk tho... :-(

Michael was incredible. I love that there was all this anticipation... you know, I know what kind of performer Justin is, I've seen him a hundred times, but I've never seen Michael before and it was -- breathtaking to say the least.

I cried at the end... wow, I want to cry thinking about it. He was great. I want to see him again! Can't wait til next tour!!!

:-)

I've been busy nonstop since we got home and I just now got a second to update, my apologies. I'm only going to be busier. I have to take Jennifer to work from now on -- tell you about it later -- and I have to prepare for LA.

It's only two weeks tomorrow!! AH! I'm still coming out of my skin!!

Wow, I'm tired. I might go nap in the car. Or watch a movie. Yaa, I'll do that.

Pic of the Day:



Everyone has put their 2 cents in and so I reckon I should too.

I think that at 15. yes Miley is too young to be posing for photos like this. Yes, she's a very beautiful girl... but for Annie to ask her to take off her clothes (regardless of her being covered by a big blanket or not) is wrong. This is child porn.

She is JUST A GIRL. She's only 15 years old and this is innapropriate. Where were her handlers? I can't believe that her parent's would let their daughter (DISNEY DAUGHTER!) take off her clothes for cameras.

You hear me clucking?

But, my opinion and everyone elses don't matter -- it was all their decision and they're the ones who have to sleep at night.

xoxox

More Than Your Heart Can Take (19)

"I'm taking my heart and I'm setting it free
And baby now you're just another song to me
And the edge of your sword isn't sharp enough for me to bleed..."

Oh, yesterday was stressful and eventful. Thankfully it's over now and I'm full steem ahead, Omaha.

I finally dyed my hair last night. Jennifer had to freaking wait until 4a to even start it... maybe a little before it. I didn't go to bed until 530a and I woke up at 1230p -- that's odd for me. I shoulda slept longer.

I got up and watched Ugly Betty (mediocre, but I'm excited to see what happens with Renee...) and Grey's Anatomy (freaking amazing!!! It was shocking. FANTASTIC!)

Let's see if I can write down everything I have to do today and then hopefully remember it:

-Wash hair again, take bath.
-Pack
-Wash Bella, clip and paint her nails, clean her ears.
-Pack for Bella (don't forget dog bed.)
-Mani/Pedi
-Mani/Pedi Jennifer
-Clean kitchen/take out trash
-Get DVDs for travel
-Burn CDs for trip/Tina (almost forgot that one!)
-Buy liquor
-Cash my check

Crap, and I want to take a nap. I think I'm going to finish my blog, burn my CDs and take a nap. I'm still tired. I think I got up just because I wanted to see Grey's Anatomy... ;-) I've got a shitload to do tonight.

Jennifer won't be home until 1 probably and we'll have another late night packing and getting ready, of course Jennifer didn't even go to bed last night!!! She's going to be super tired when she gets home, but she has to pack and we have to mani/pedi. There's of course stuff on that list that I can't do until Jennifer gets home because she has the car...

I'll nap for a while and then Bella and I will get in the bath and get all beautified. I'll do her nails, then my toes and then my nails. LOL Do the acrylic last!! LOL

Pic of the Day:



Seeping puppeh in a drawer space. Cuter than that? Nothin.

xoxox

You're A Fallen Star... (20)

"and I know just why you could not come along with me,
this was not your dream, but you always believed in me..."

Jennifer and I went to Taraget yesterday and laundry detergent was on sale for $4 (like the good stuff...) and we accidentally got fabric softener. You can tell we don't do a lot of laundry.

It was so creepy last night... it got really dark, really quick and then it started pouring and I just wanted to get home to Bella so badly. I was scared that it was going to tornado... So we're driving home and we're on our street, less than a mile from home and there was a pick up truck in front of us with a mattress on it and Jenn said, "well that's going to be wet!" and I pointed out that it looked new because I saw the plastic on it...

Literally not 30 seconds after I said that it blew out of the back of the truck. (Stupid people didn't bungee it down, nothing... matresses don't weigh that much to begin with and on top of that it was awful winds because of the storm! It felt like a hurricane!)

So it blew out of the truck and I'm right behind this guy... (well I wasn't close to him... but I was the car behind him.) So I brake and it blew into the oncoming lane and this really nice Lexus drove over it, and I thought "it's going to run over the matress..." well it did, except it got stuck in it's 4 tires, so it was pushing it along, trapped under the car.

The truck just stopped in the middle of the road... I was like, "you gon' go back and get your stuff, dude?!"

Man, if I was that Lexus I woulda been LIVID!

I'm doing my hair tonight!! yay!! I was going to do it last night, but due to unforseen circumstances, I didn't get around to it. But I did finish Jennifer's hair last night and she looks super sexy now!!! WOO!

Pic of the Day:



xoxox

Hot Dog (21)

"Now you feel obsessed with me
You're wanting more, you're needing me
In sleep, you dream and think of us
And when you wake you're still in love
I change your thoughts your mind's not clear
Except for what I make you feel
I know my magic's taking hold
You're losing all your self control"

I worked my last day at McDonalds before Omaha yesterday! YAY! It was actually a pretty good day there... I had a lot of laughs with Mike, Christian and Co.

Also, I found out that Josh, the swing manager (and the person who got Jennifer her 2nd manager's job...) has a huge crush on me... uh oh... bad news??? I like him too.

I just swore off guys and then this awesome guy comes along. He's got to be ranked as the 2nd hottest guy I've ever dated (if I date him.)

But, yeah... Jennifer got sick of me having guys -- in 08 alone I've dated 2 guys and had 6 others ask me out/crush on me. But the super weird thing is that it's been all within the past two months or so... 6 guys in 2 months?!?! My God... this is why I say I'm flypaper.

Anyways, I don't know what to think of it just yet -- like I said, I swore off guys because they were getting in the way of my focusing on my album, and now a great guy comes along -- well can't a break a shitty rule for a great guy?? LOL

I'm not eating today. Or at least that's the plan. The plan is to not eat until Omaha and then eat very little in Omaha -- after Omaha, don't eat until LA and then watch myself in LA.

How long do I have to not eat before I move up a bracelet??

Ooh, good question Jodie.

I did the blonde on Jennifer's hair last night and she looks like a supastar. I actually hate her with blonde, but it's her hair, so whatever. Tonight I'm doing the red highlights. I like her with the Tammy hair, but with just blonde?? No.

Tammy hair:



I'm doing my hair tonight... I'm pretty stoked for it... WOO!

I'm going for it:



I don't know how it'll turn out, but when you're doing your own hair you kind of have to do it blindly! I'm just going to be blonde blonde blonde... I love being blonde. I think it's a female right.

I'm sure the bottom will still turn out darker than the top. Ahh, oh well. Can't win em all.

Just got word that I'm highlighting Tina's hair when we get up to Omaha... I really should get paid for all of this.

Let's see -- if I made $25 a cut, $25 color and I've been doing Jennifer's hair for 8 years... Sometimes she's changed hairstyles as much as 5 or 6 times a year... she owes me...

Carry the 2...

One million dollars.

Pic of the day:



I once found this on a greeting card and sent it to my Daddy.

xoxox

The Oxygen I Need. (22)

"Why should I be sad?
From the stupid freaking things that you do...
Why should I get mad? or sad? Who knows,
Just take it all as a sign that we're through..."

I don't really know where to begin, I want to speak on something specific, but I can't... or maybe I don't know how, or where to start.

I didn't get much sleep last night and I'm exhausted today. I think I have an Emergen-C packet with me, but I CBA to get up and get some water for it. I wonder what it would taste like in lemonade... *thinks*

I'm at McDonalds... I got here at one and it's nearly 2 now. I don't work til 5 but Jennifer has her stupid manager meeting at one.

Jennifer and I tried to go get her last paycheck from Coldstone today (for the 3rd time) and the stupid freaking manager was never there and they won't release Jennifer her check unless the manager is there. So now, unfortunately, I have to go up there in an hour and get her check for her.

This lady is such a bitch that I doubt she'll give me Jennifer's check, in which case, Jennifer's going to have to go up there on her lunch break and get the check.

We have needed this money for DAYS. DAYS, I tell you!!!

Today is the last day that I have to work before MB in Omaha (4 days!)

Tina and I have been having revelations lately. You know, it's really nice to be wanted and I just realized that I am the best friend to a lot of people... It's nice. I need to think of that next time that I want to die because I'm really loved. It's wonderful. I'm best friends with Jennifer, Gemma, and Tina. I'm sure there's more. LOL Well, of course Rachel's in there too, but she has a lot of friends -- she seems very popular, so she doesn't need me as her best friend. LOL I'm sure I'll get a text about that later.

I love all of my friends. I feel really lucky now. I just filmed a part of my documentary saying that I didn't really have a lot of close friends but the ones I had were amazing. Unfortunately it was a bit windy where we filmed that and now fortunately I will have to reshoot it so I can include details about how much I love my friends.

I'm filming parts of my documentary in Omaha with my digital (just like I am doing for LA). So, if Tina will particiapate it will be nice to have her on my documentary. We can get drunk and whatnot. LOL We can get "real" with each other, and I just have a feeling that I'm going to get deep in Omaha.

Speaking of deep, Tina and I have been getting deep lately. Apparently, she just realized some things today... and I was going to touch on the subject, but I think I've changed my mind.

I need to do my fucking hair. It's looking nappy. I think I had a dream about that last night. Yep, I did. Ooh, I need to do Jennifer's hair too.

Pic of the Day:


Vintage Timberlake circa 2002.

xoxox

Ohh...

"I said I don't want nobody
Nobody don't want me
I'm so sad, so lonely
I'm always landing on my feet"

Sorry I didn't blog yesterday... yesterday was a crazy day.

Before work I had a panic attack and so I took half of a Klonopin and went to work. By the time I got to work and started working I had wished I took a whole one. I was just not dealing very well at all.

They put me in the window because that's what I'm best at and I swear I wanted to scream at every customer and throw drinks at them. I just wasn't doing very well and felt like I wasn't in my body.

So I asked Jennifer to move me from customer service to running for drive thru so I didn't do or say something to a customer that I would regret.

So I'm running for drive thru and I'm trying so hard to keep myself composed but it's being very hard. I'm having nervous twitches and trying hard not to scream at people.

I'm the kind of girl to where, if I'M doing something, then just let me do it, don't help me... DONT HELP ME. If I want help I'll ask for help. I don't need help running, I can do it by myself. And the other manager, Beth, doesn't put the fry scooper back where it belongs, she just lays it in the bed with the fries and that makes it hot and then when I go to grab it, it's hot.

Just let me do my job.

I kept telling Jenn, "I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart..." and she told me that I was going on break next and so finally I went on break and I just went to the car and cried and cried and screamed... over basically nothing...

So then I went inside and I asked Jennifer if I could go home to get more Klonopin or Xanax... it's about an hour round trip, but I told her if I didn't have anything that I wasn't going to make it... or I was just going to go home and leave for the day. She told me that I could go home and get it.

So I cried and screamed the entire way home. I was so anxious and nervous, I just didn't feel like me...

I got home and knew where my Klonopin was but I hadn't seen my Xanax in a while so I tore the house apart looking for it and finally I found it in the medicine drawer. I don't put ANYTHING in there, so it made me feel like Jennifer intentionally hid it from me... even though now I see that she probably didn't.

So I cried some more and Bella licked my tears and then I took half of a Klonopin and started to feel better so I went back to work. When I got to McD again I took a Xanax and made it through the rest of my shift.

I'll bet people thought I was stoned. I wasn't moving so fast and I wasn't responding too well to people. LOL But it felt good. Felt better to be like that rather than feel like I was going to come out of my skin.

Next subject.

Doing my hair on Wed... or at least buying the stuff to do my hair... I have one box of kinda goldenish blonde with just a tint tint tint tint tint of red. Hardly noticible which I like...

Apparently like EVERYONE hates the black and blonde thing, so I'll just be normal. Blonde. I already rocked that look, so why go back anyhow, right? Plus, black is so hard to lift.

I've got 3 people who's hair I love (in these specific photos... not saying I always love their hair...)

Now, here's what I love about these photos/celebs hair... I love the color, the style and the cut all in one. So collectivly I want to take all 9 of these photos and make it my hair. Gotcha??

Consider this pics of the day. ;-)

Bridget: Mah girl... we're so the same but different.


She's got long hair like mine, but I think her's is a few inches longer. She's got the blonde blondest out of these girls.



Bitch has the cutest body ever and makes roots look good!!!



I love this picture the most because it shows the definition in her hair color. It shows she's got lightest blonde, golden blonde and a lil light brown in there too... which is probably what my hair will end up like. I always have a thousand colors in my hair. LOL


Britney: Bitch used to have killer hair... now her weave scares me. Seriously B... get strand by strand extensions, not that cheap shit. Your hair used to rock my face.


I'm loving the golden blonde and platinum blonde here in her hair. That's what I'm going to try for, I believe.



I love her bangs. I need to trim mine so badly!!! They're so long I can put them into my ponytails!!! (Alright, the ponies on top of my head, but still!!!) I haven't cut my bangs in forever... just haven't really had anything important to do so no reason to do my hair... now I have Omaha (6) and LA (25)!



One of my ABSOLUTE favorite photos of Britney... I love the straight straight (even though it's a little too short for me...) and her makeup is so Jodie. Here she's got light blonde and platinum and I love that, but I don't have the talent to get that on my own and on the first try... so maybe next time. ;-)


Jessica: Jessica's best friend is her hair stylist. How unfair is that? Damn. And he's gaymayzing. My God... above the other girls Jessica's hair is the most I want to emulate. Her hair is freaking perfect. Style, cut, color... hell her hair has its own attitude. God Bless Ken.


This photo is incredible. She looks so thin, plus she's got the most perfect golden blonde and hightlights. The volume and bounce in her hair is so sexy and she's very "Farrah" here.



My hair will probably end up like this, blonde on top (sort of just one color... you can tell it's not, its got just a few high tones... but mostly just one color) and then darker golden blonde on the bottom. The bottom of my hair has always been darker than the top, which I hate... but I guess if I ended up like this it would NOT be the end of the world!!



She's so cute here! Here you can tell her hair has a little more definition and really that's what I want.

Golden blonde, blonde and platinum. Yep. Alright. I hope it works.

What do y'all think????

xoxox